i just feel that there ain't any effort being made

Days passes so slowly and it feels like years that i last seen you or spoke to you,
it's so torturing.
Part of me wants you back in Singapore like NOW, but another part of me doesn't,
i'm just so afraid that when you are back everything will change between us cause we don't even speak to each other anymore.

Trying to keep myself occupied so that i wouldn't think so much.

/laters




new tatt soon.

HI ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fucking hell can't sleep.
fucking worried.
3 hours and counting, fucking can't thru the line.
kaos!

/later

My baby's out of town, won't be seeing her till tomorrow. blahs. ):


i miss baybeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


/later

i lost my voice.
i am supposed to say "I am your worst nightmare" to scare people,
but not having to say that i think i've already scared enough people yesterday and today i'm gonna scare more.
whoever i served in the store gave me a "what the fuck is wrong with ya voice" look.
so paiseh. so i've decided not to talk so much.

salary is coming,
increasing of GST also coming.
bloody hell!
why is everything increasing but NOT MY SALARY!
honestly,
i'm feeling super depressed now.
yes,
1stly is about the above issue.
2ndly is i don't know what is going on in my mind.
she mentioned that we drifted.
i still feel not secured.(as usual)
i feel that i know nothing.

ok, `nuff said.

i'm going to rest my sexy voice.



i miss that silly




/later

Hellllllllllllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! (:

I've just started my practs for 2B. (:
now my hands got 3 tones all thanks to the sun. shitty!
tanning salon next month with baby!

hmmmm,
getting bay her "pink color" next month,
nah, i mean "white color" hehs.
wondering what is it?
DON'T TELL YOU!

ok, i'm being lame.

there's nothing to blog lah.
oh! i haven't mentioned that work is getting super boring for me?
yes! it's getting super duper boring. tsk!

and,




i think my god son's damn cute!
:D



MISSES!

/later

The truth is out and its hurting.
it may seem that it's nothing to me,
it may seem that it doesn't really affect me that much at all,
but it hurts.

You'll never know how much i do treasure you,
you'll never know how much i love you.
You may think that i don't anymore,
but it ain't the way it is.

People say,
true love only applies when there's only one,
when there's forgiveness,
when there's nothing to hide from each other,
when there's trust,
when there's commitment.
I may be able to forgive, but i'll never forget.

I don't even know if it's all along a one sided,
or is it not.
all you could say is "i don't know".
you ain't even sure of yourself and your feelings.

There's nothing much i can say.
but only,
"i really do love you."




/later