haven't been blogging for godzillian years.
had been busy with things.
now am searching for jobs, going for interviews.
meeting girlfriend and then home.


today's the 1st day,
bloody cramp is killing me.
the pain had been here since morning. ))):

going for interview later,
hope to see her later, but i doubt she will come out and meet me.
well, let's hope that tomorrow she will be able to meet.
i miss her. ((:


today's is project superstar's finals,
i wish Kelvin and Kelly good luck. (call till like i know them like that) HAHA.
whatever lah.
off to watch tv.
ta.

the times we had, and we're still sharing it together.
girl, you make me go weak on my knees.
i won't leave and i know you won't too.
we'll be a perfect pair till the day,
the birds decided to give up their wings to pigs. (((((:

I LOVE YOU!!

sometimes the action of someone does really affect the way you feel,
or maybe the words they say?
so please all people out there,
mind ya actions and ya words before you hurt someone.(someone you love deeply maybe)

i'm so freaking bored and tired,
no work tomorrow, but still, i gotta wake up early like maybe 11am?
just to accompany parents to "xin fu yum cha" for dim sum session.
sister's not home, over at bf's house i guess.



girl, you really make me wonder.

when you see me keeping all too quiet and i don't pick quarrels anymore. you'll know why.

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

i haven't got my god-damned pay,
fucking broke that is.
i swear that place has the worse workers welfare ever,
all they could think is themselves and never thought of the workers.
we took care of the cafe, but who took care of us?(NO ONE)
self-centered pepople.

i look back and started thinking,
who i am before and who i am now.
what i've became and what i will become.
i'm so different from the bj i used to be,
i was so rebellious and all i could thought of was nobody else but me.
i've grown up.(am turning fucking 20 in 12 days time)
OH! i feel so old suddenly.

i wanna thank my lovely girlfriend who had went through so much shits with me,
she accompanied me through all and every single little things i've been through for these past 11 months, be it joy, sorrows or anger,
she was there and she's still here.
she changed me, she made me a totally different person from who i was 11 months ago.
xie xie. (((:


i'm so freaking bored now,
downloading songs and many are in que.


ok, laters.

it's magical how you still can make my heart beat so fast when i look into your eyes.
it's been so long,
and i'm still so madly in love with you.
i could never imagine my days without you.

i love the way you put ya lips on mine,
i love the way you look at me when i did something silly,
i love it when you go gentle on me,
i love it when you hold my waist and hug me tight,
i love you and i love you.



happy 11th monthsary my dear.

To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep
You really ought a know
How much you mean to me
It's only right that you be in my life right here with me.


oh, do you know i can't stop thinking about you; about us?

can't you just show me some care and concern?
why do you seem like you can't even be bothered at all?

know what?
i'm starting to learn abit,
learn to shut.

but i seriously need to learn how to meditate,
if not i believe just one fine day i'll go crazy.


don't stop loving me, i feel alone.



爱是心理一个结 不是谁都可以解
无缘的人多么尽力还是流泪
当对的人出现 交换了体谅的一眼
重重心事开了不再有纠结
你是我的海角乐园 给我另一片世界
都市丛林拥挤压抑就看天边
我们因为误解 倔强的忍着痛告别
思念想躲却被后悔给发觉

爱你 想你 确定不在乎一切
只要 有你 平凡也变特别
我们曾追求美梦各自走的太远
却不曾习惯没你在身边

当我们终于坦白将心摆在彼此面前
迷路的爱回到身边

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise

In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Till my dying day

And I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
Yes I do


i'm sorry

came online to check some tuition coordinating thingy.
thinking if i should take it up for extra income,
but i don't want to waste my money on the monthly database payment.
it's like so stupid lah?

dear xxx,

you're somewhere and i'm at home rotting and waiting for you to go back home.
i can't smell you for 2 days.pouts.



yours,
xtt



my mum's packing stuff to move to new house already,
now like how early to pack lah?
still got 4months+ plus before we'll move?
oh wells.
i shall go discard some useless things in my room.
cheers!

due to extreme boredness, i'm blogging like 21387128904 times a day.
pardon me, as i've decided to talk some cock sense here.
there it goes.....



"he ran around in the maze thought he knew the way out no matter what,
but still, in the end he got lost."

do not under estimate yourself,
neither should you think too highly.

when you under estimate, you lose hope and faith in everything you do.

when you think too highly, you tend to let good opportunities slip pass ya way and not listen to advices given by others, in the end causing failure.


what you should do; do not give up when obstacles come ya way, be cool and handle it knowledgably and wisely.

i can say, but i can't do.
i will lose my coolness, leading to unproper ways of handling problems.(i get angry VERY easily)
i don't think highly of myself,
instead i have extremely low self-esteem.
no confidence, not even a single bit.

maybe i should learn to handle things wisely.(that will take a million century i guess)
but meanwhile, i think i should shut and not make any noise.


i wanna be there.

ok, let it be.

从你眼睛看着自己 最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契 是明天的指引
无论是远近什么世纪 在天堂拥抱
或荒野流离 我爱你我敢去
未知的任何命运 我爱你我愿意
准你来跋扈地决定 世界边境
偶尔我真的不懂你 又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密 是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性 怕泄漏你怕
所以你生气 我爱你让我听
你的疲惫和恐惧 我爱你我想亲
你倔强到极限的心 我撑起所有爱
围成风雨的禁地 挡狂风豪雨
想让你喘口气 被割破的信心
需要时间痊愈 梦想缠着怀疑
未来看不清 就紧紧的拥抱
去传[递]能量和勇气 我爱你
我爱你我想去 未知的任何命运
我爱你让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
哪里都一起去 一起仰望星星
一起走出森林 一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌 一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己 一起找到意义
我爱你 我不要没有你
我不能没有你 绝不能没有你

out of how many beings will get freezy cold when they are very pissed?
a few maybe, and i'm one of the few.
weird i think.

someone at work wasn't being honest with his/her doings.
money went missing and yet din wanna admit wrong,
don't even feel a bit guilty at all.
of course lah,
also not they take responsibility for it.
i pity some of my colleagues.
i think that particular 3-handed creature is damn selfish,
his/her previous life ambition must be a fishmonger.

i feel even more stress in me now,
there's too much to think and too many things are happening all at one goal.
i wonder how long i can hang on and be strong,
i doubt it can be long.



4 more days..

i was asked to consider taking up full time instead of part time.
he offered me a certain amount for my pay but i want more.
cause that's the pay even for those cooks who don't do their jobs at some other places.
i did and i'm still doing my job,
so i think i deserve better pay.

i was being laughed at for still wearing spongebob boxers at this age.
EXCUSE ME.
it isn't what you think, i din flash my boxer for anyone.
i told them(certain THEM) cause i'm proud of it.
cause xxx bought me one last time. (((((:
oh wells, call me childish then.
but i like.

i'm currently in a "HELLO, I'M DEAD BORED!" mood.
nothing to do, no show to watch, nothing to chew on.
no messages from her, nobody talking to me.
boredsations.

Mr patrick lying in front of me,
still in many different pieces.
i couldn't get a material i need to even start,
damn the stupid shop!

National day is coming!
so is my day and OUR day!! ((((((:


"HELLO XXX, PLEASE TALK TO ME. FREE ME FROM ALL THE DUST ON ME. I'M DEAD BORED AND I MISS YOU LIKE ****!!!!"

Everybody, i'm using a comment box now. no more tag.


je me sens très inconfortable quand vous dites cela vous êtes la réunion quelqu'un sans moi, mais je a choisi de fier vous plutôt de demander trop beaucoup

early morning, the alarm alert from my phone woke me up.
my eyes could barely open, due to the ----- last night.
had a major breakdown last night.
i started blaming myself for everything bad that had happened to us,
i started cursing and swearing to myself,
i started some self conversations.

i felt the heavy weight on my head, on my shoulder.
it felt like there's an elephant on me,(HAHA?)
and again i can hardly breathe.
heavy eye lids, tensed up muscles everywhere(including brain muscles).
goodness, i've never felt this bad in my whole life before.

oh lord,
why am i feeling this way?
am i going crazy?




i only want the best out of us.