tiring day.
kitchen flooded like hell.
got so pek cek,
couldn't concentrate and everything went haywire.

didn't even receive a msg or call from gf.
i miss her so much.
sighs.


gonna work 7am tomorrow,
why?
cause the cook was asked to leave today.
7-3.



gf, please come back fast!!

Jamie Cullum- Everlasting Love



woke up early,
ok, not that early.
but still it's earlier then normal days.
cause i got 2 alarm clocks to wake me up.
to wake up and see if gf's online in China.
but no,
she's not.
tsk*.


gotta work later.
11am-7pm.
might drag longer,
need to do my manual on kitchen.



please come back fast.





/laters

i wanna see you, i wanna talk to you, i wanna hug you, i wanna kiss you. i miss you. =((



was late for work,
cause gf was online this morning.
but i only got to talk to her for less than 5 mins.
can't msg her,
can't talk to her,
can't see her.
sulks*.

work was alrights,
wasn't really very busy.
kitchen flooded,
i think the pipe kinda choked.
Dhalia and i was so free,
we tried to make Goreng Pisang outta the bananna somebody gave us.
wasn't a bad attempt though,
not a very good one either.

U-R-G-E-N-T
i need a assistant in kitchen fast,
anyone intersted please drop me a msg, give me a call or leave a tag behind.
Oh,
i need a permanent one,
someone who can work long term. =))


i'm so tired,
wanted to sleep straight when i reach home.
but i couldn't get to sleep.
miss that stupid monkey too much.
=/
tsk*
haven't been sleeping well for these past 2 nights.
the night before she left,
and yesterday night.


going to bed soon,
hope to fall asleep fast so time will pass fast,
and so i will be able to see you soon.





i'm sick, sick in the heart. love sick.

god knows how much i'm missing her.







goodnight gf,
please keep yourself warm.
hug that pig to sleep.
and take good care of yourself please.















/bed

met cal, kaixin, hongda, aj and sheryl.
tpy Snooker Zone.



gf's flying again,
later.
to China.


i'm feeling so blahs.
this whole week,
i'll make sure i pack myself with nothing else but work.
sighs,
although it's only 5 days.
but still,
i'm gonna miss her so much.
=((((((







gf, please take good care of yourself.
i'm so gonna miss you.
please think of me ok?









/down

gf say i lousy,
gf say we lousy.


gf's going china on monday,
gf will only be coming back on friday night. =(((


i'll be working 11am-7pm everyday for the week she won't be in town.
i hope i won't be working on sat,
am i?


gf won't be in town from monday to friday,
5 freaking days please.
it will be a living hell for me man. =/

sighs.





oh, and anyways,
Merry Christmas everyone.




what a boring christmas.






you'll never know what a special place you have in my heart.

whoa,
whole body's aching like hell.
including my neck.
blue black on knees.
both my elbows hurt.



i'm sorry gf,
i hope your bum and hand doesn't hurt anymore. =/
and please take good care of yourself,
cause i won't be seeing you till god knows when.
cause you're going china! =((


won't be going out today.
tomorrow i hope i can wake up to go shopping with mum,
i need new sportsbra.








gf please bring the pig along with you to china.
=)))










i love you more then i can say

monks-ed.
bad night.

i think i make a damn lousy gf.
i think i'm just so useless.
sighs.

am a happy boy today. =)))
i met miss gf!!
teeheehee.
haven't been so happy for so longgggg.

but miss gf going china soon.
on monday.
and only will be back on friday.
she won't be bringing her phone over there.
can't see her,
can't talk to her.
my life would be a living hell man.


later i work i'll see her face in every pans and pots i'm using,
maybe even cups.
grrrr...
=((((((
this time i might reallie just go insane.
AHHHHHHHHH.




tomorrow's eve of christmas.
work half day.
will be heading to monks at night.
gf will be there with her clique.



wells,
Merry christmas everyone.



my wishes for this christmas:

1) I want a I-Pod Mini-Black.
2) I want a Vans.
3) I want a new hp. preferbly 6630(but it's not launched yet)
4) I hope days would pass very fast when gf's away from town. =((


guess that's about it,
santa i've been very good this year.
please grant all my wishes. =D











/laters

feeling damn drained,
both emotionally and physically.




how i wish she is here with me.
i need a hug,
and i want a hug from her.
=((((((
i need to see her monkey face.



worked.
10am-7pm.
tomorrow,
7am-4.30pm.
grrr.





/laters

hands on on everything today.
=))
am a happy boy now.
but i burnt my little fingers.
=/


i miss my gf.
=(((





and i wanna spend the eve of christmas with her!
=((((

once again,
a sleepless night.



i'm sorry





i love you.

















/laters

worked.
11am-7pm.
hands on for pastas today.

after work,
met gf and her friends for awhile.
what happened shan't write in details.

she got me an Obey T-Shirt.
thank you gf,
i like it alot.

tomorrow working,
same time.



i think i make the world's ever worse sister and gf.
i swear.
S-I-G-H-S!!




i hope i can spend time with you soon, just you and me.








/shagged

she's moodswinging and i don't know.
she's moodswinging and i don't know what to do.
she's moodswinging and i can't cheer her up.
i'm feeling damn lousy now.
fucken me.
hate myself.




















/laters

slept till 2plus.
shiok ah.
haven't been sleeping till this time for a week already.

met lerrick and devon over at Grassroot club.
from maybe 6pm,
sat till 10plus.
deborah came.

ate so much of garlic bread,
ordered calamari.
drank ice tea made of syrup and water,
i swear it's darn sweet that me and devon gotta add half a glass of water into it.
everything's free,
except lerrick's latte.
oh,
and lerrick got a free scoope of vanilla ice cream. =/


tomorrow gotta work,
11am-7pm.
and i wanna see that monkey tomorrow please.
sighs.
now i like one day never see her i will die.

am pms-ing.
hope i won't have my mens so soon,
i don't wanna have cramps please.
hate to have cramps while working,
can't do things properly.
plus now i'm working in kitchen.

work had been fine for the pass one week,
got a thick book of manual to read and do corrections in it.
i don't know why,
but am feeling quite stressed up ah.

oh,
just now me and deb was laughing at this woman in the train.
next stop is toa payoh,
and she stand up and went to the door wanting to alight.
and then after maybe 10sec before the door open,
she walked back to the middle of the cabin.

deb: huh?
me: haha.
deb: where she think she is at?
me: city hall interchange maybe?
deb: but it just said toa payoh?
me: it's not funny at all.
me: very funny only! (LOL)

ok, we're so mean.
but never mind.
=))



i miss my gf so much.
sighs.
i wanna see her now!
and i mean now!!
miss monkey.
faster appear in front of me now now NOW!!!
=(((((((
i want hugs.





/laters

worked.
8am-1pm.
met miss gf.
=)))
am so happy that i finally can see her,
it seem like it's been 2137198273 years since i've last saw her can.
when i was gonna leave,
i couldn't bear.
sorry for my attitude today.


am feeling so tired,
while on the way home on bus.
i slept,
and is reallie fell asleep,
i banged my head against the window. =/
don't laugh.
everyone does that when they are drained physically.


i'm missing that monkey so much now.
=((((((((
i want faster faster see her again!!











whenever i'm with you, i always hope that time will stops.


no one have ever made me feel the way you did,
you're the special one and the one and only one.
girl,
i couldn't imagine what will i be without you,
i wouldn't even dare to think.
cause i never want it to happen,
we'll be together all the way till the end.








/laters

hurt my wrist.
tired.


don't know why my gf always hate and dislike me so much.
she say all these more then she say she love me.
sighs.
don't know what's wrong.


tmr shift,
7am-5pm.
gonna be damn tired.




it breaks my heart

just got up,
brushed my nice teeth and going to bathe soon!

i din dream of her.
=(((((((((((((((((((
sighs*


gf ah gf,
i'm not becoming a workaholic lah.
now under training that's why?
okok,
i'm a bananna jungle.




i miss that girl so so so so so so so(infinity) much.
wonder when can i see her again?
wonder when can i hold her in my arms again?
sighs*
silly girl,
please take extra good care of yourself.


i don't want to see fever tomorrow,
or puking,
or ls-ing.
you better see a doc and eat med.
and you better eat something.

you're worrying me.
very badly.


off to bathe and work.
my breakfast's maggie meee.
tsk*






i love that girl just so much.

cry to sleep.









i miss you so much. =((

worked.
tired.

chef MC today and tomorrow.
so i'll be learning how to cook.

tomorrow work at 7am.
till don't know what time.


i miss that girl.




















/laters

talking to her now.
=))))


i know we can pull through all these fucken shits.
as long as our heart stay together
and our love keeps on going strong.




i'll pack myself in a huge gift box and give it to you on christmas,
using my hair as a ribbon.
ok?











/iloveyouonly

fucken msn!!!
i couldn't sign in and just tell gf that i love her.
sighs.


teardrops just fall
and rolled down my cheeks.

i wonder what will happen the next min.

it hurts so much to see you this way.


i know you need me,
i need you as much too.


i miss you

not gonna work in funfair anymore.
starting work at lerrick's work place tomorrow; burke's coffee.
it's at raffles place, caltex house.
people who wanna get food poisoning,
come,
i'll cook for u.
yes,
C-O-O-K.
cannot believe?
just pray hard i don't poison everyone who eats there.



am fucken worried.
why gf haven't call?
=((((

din work.

boring day.



miss that monkey.
=))













/laters

towned.
yes,
again.
with gf, lerrick and nancy.

walked around,
coffeclub-ed.
choc fundue-ed.
gf and her bananna.



tomorrow gotta help out at orchard funfair.
starting work at 6pm.
gonna help out again from the 17th-26th.
one week of work,
gf how?
tsk*




anyways,
i love that miss monkey.
=)))))











/laters

towned.
met gf and friends.
maye and ade.
off to europa bistro for drink and fries.


i think me and ade can be very good friends,
hmm..
only me and her know why.
haha.



/laters

god damned.
i think i'm gonna lose my voice soon.
how the hell am i going to go for the audition tomorrow! =(
and anyways,
i still have got no idea what song to sing.
tsk*




am waiting to go town.














those interested in singing,
go to.
Impresario 2005

met gf.
wanted to watch movie ah.
but don't have time slots lah.
tsk.
irritatingg.
gf,
not i don't want to watch ah.


quarrelled.
for more then one hour ah.
shall not write in details.



sat going for Impresario 2005 singing audition.
pondering hard what songs to sing.
am so excited please.
=D
and my friend wants me to be her demo singer.
teeheehee.


wish me luck all.
=)))))





/laterss

met gf with lerrick and nancy yest.
went PP then to town.
went to a shop that made me felt so lost in it; Gucci.
Thai express.


now,
waiting for miss monkey to get ready.
miss monkey who?
miss monkey my gf.



i've never been so broke in my whole life.
tsk.
this is getting on my nerves.
i need a job desperately.
look carefully,
D-E-S-P-E-R-A-T-E-L-Y!!!

am waiting for lerrick's workplace to hire me.
hopefully they do,
cause now am not looking for jobs cause of that.




i know we can make it through.





/laters

happy 3rd month gf.




































loves*

i've never came across a maid that do things so slowly.
slow motion.
taking her own sweet time.
make me can't meet my gf early.
tsk.
knn.


tsk.
moodswinging now.







fuckit.

gf called!!
=))
i'm happy.




















i want a new phone soon.

for the 1st time,
last night,
was the worse night ever
i couldn't sleep well.
sleep already,
kept waking up.
cold sweating.
had severals terrible nightmare.
about me and her.

all of it just seem so real,
it scares me till i din dare to sleep again.
but the moment i lie down,
close my eyes.
flashes of the nightmares.

woke up for a smoke.
stoned on bed.
think of her.
till i fell asleep once again.
the nightmares continues.



i miss her so much.
so so much.




wuyingliangping/xiang.jian.ni

gf, i will wait for ya call.


i promise.


















i've come to realise,
you're my life.
without you.
i'll be nothing.
i promised to you,
i will never let go.
neither will you.
i love you












/laters

got my haircut.
a cross that is somehow slanted shaved on the left. =/

i look horrid.









gf's coming back in about 18 hours time.
hopefully i can get to see her tomorrow the first thing she land on singapore.
i miss her so so so so so F-U-C-K-I-N-G much please.














gf,




Pay me a visit at WoodBridge when you're back.





Yours,
fat one.

sayvious called yesterday,
saying that there's no need for me to go down to work on weekdays.
so i'll only be working on fri sat and sun.


gf's coming back tomorrow!
=)
i miss her so much.
can't wait to see her.


am gonna have a haircut,
either later or tomorrow.
tsk*
feel so weird with my hair now.



you know, you're the one and only. now and always. nothing would change the fact.








/waiting