DEX:
i'm sorry for whatever had happened.
i feel as bad and as hurt as you do.
i hate to see you like this.
stop doing things that is harming yourself.
please,
i beg of you.
you never know how much i treasure this friendship with you.
you are the greatest friend i ever had.
and you're still one.
i seriously hate to see you in this state.
there's nothing i can do or say to make you feel better,
cause i know the hurt that i've left deep down within you is far too hard,
too painful.
all i can do is to say sorry.
sorry to have hurt you once again.

work was alright today.

my last day today (cause it's pass 12MN)
i'm so gonna miss all my "crime" partners there.
am gonna miss that place too.


after work,
went down tampines with kian and jas.
met my wifey!
although it's only for a while,
i'm glad that i saw her. =))))





you're all i ever need

i can't believe i've cried for you,
i can't imagine how much i love you so.





i love you,
and i always will.






i would never wanna lose you.
and never can i afford to.










i'm sorry.








you are my everything

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sound from afar: "Who's there! Stop running!"

I'll just run off.

i'm sorry to have been a lousy friend all along,
you were always there when i needed someone,
you're always there,
always.

i know i have disappointed and hurt you many times without knowing,
neglecting you,
and not being there for you when you needed someone.

i know whatever i say or do won't heal that pain in you.

i'm sorry to not appreciate whatever you've done for me.


I wanna thank you for everything you've done for me,
and thank you for being such a wonderful friend.
*sighs
















met wifey today,
caught ladder49.
should watch.
worth watching.













you know i can't lose you

Met devon, ang and ping.
supposed to be chinablack yesterday.
but,
something happened.
went devils.
i swear that place suck big time.
eeekkss.
but at least they play some music that is dancable.
so surprised to see zuan qi there.
shouted my name so loud. =/








i'm glad that me and wifey are doing just fine now. =))))

can't wait to see her later. =D


















promise from me to you.

"You have come into my life
Through a door I was afraid
Would never be open again
For many have slammed it
On their way out

So please feel free
To stay as long as you like
But should the time come
That you must leave
Please, close the door gently
As you go"

i love you too much to give up.


This whole thing that had happened,
CRAPS!
sighs.


A hundreds and thousands or maybe..
an infinity of sorrys.


i was so afraid of losing you.
i was so afraid that everything would come to an end.
i am still afraid.

call me a coward all you want,
all i know is that i love my gf.




i'm sorry

*matchbookromance/promise


What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go promise me you'll never let me go
And now the stars aren't out tonight
but neither are we to look up at them why does hello feel like goodbye
These memories can't replace These wishes I wish and dreams I chase
Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I've lost everything when your gone
Left remembering what its like To have you here with me
I thought you should know Your not making this easy

I never thought I'd be the one to say "Please don't, please don't leave me"
Take my hand and never let me go
Take my hand and never let me go Promise me
You'll never let go
Make this last forever

i don't know what the hell is happening now,
i'm in total lost.

it feels like i'm gonna lose you any sec,
any sec you're so gonna leave me.
i seriously don't wish things to happen this way.
yes,
to you i'm the worse gf ever.
or maybe,
worse is too kind of a word for me.
maybe..
i'm just a plain bastard or jerk.


i control too much,
i tight you up too tightly.
i always can't make you feel better when you're moodswinging,
or maybe about ya sch stuff.
only ya friends can.
yes,
i admit i'm such a total failure.
i condem myself to the fucking core.
i hate myself.
i'm useless.

i can never make my own gf feel better but worse,
much worse.
it seems like i'm bring more misery and more misery into her life.
or maybe not misery,
i can give her nothing.


i love her just too much.
i can't bring myself to scold her each time when i'm in anger,
or when i'm down about stuff.
this time,
i think i was being just too much.

she's just everything to me,
everyone is asking me to let go.
i can't.
i really can't.



*linjunjie-hai pa


in tears

last min when goin to close shop,
me and wei jie went down to smoke.
who knows the next minute winnie called and say that fat arse is there.
we din even finish our cigg and we went up.
bloody hell see that fucker's face.
still ask us write what report.
slap his stucked up face!!


oh!i'm gonna take bike license before i take my car. =))



lousy mother bought me ciggs from korea! =)
thank you mother!
although you're lousy,
but still,
help me save money for a few days.
(no need buy cigg) ha!


met toad face moreena, deb and kane.



my gf says i don't care about everything.
she says i torture her,
and might even abuse her in the future.
=i never don't care about everything what.
Never torture her and never will i abuse her hor!
bahs!



i love my gf!
and here i am to annouce i want her all to myself!
i'm selfish!

still feeling shit.
worse i can say.


no mood to blog.
off to sleep now.










*poofs











you'll never know how it feels to be me

hurt.
drunk.
tears.



i miss her.

i swear kane's zhong se qing you.
HATE YOU LAH KANE!!
HUR!


Devon and ang visited me,
made a fool outta me asking me to guess if she was ang or ping.
I WAS RIGHT!
she's ang.
lols.
quite difficult to see the differences between this twin sister,
cause i don't always see them what?


pics took today:::


BAHS!

me and and. i look esp ugly here. no idea why.


.me.devon.ang.


Met Devon, Kane, Deb and stupid toad face Moreena at central Mos.



I miss that pig





tomorrow one appt with aj. =))
jia yous!!

ktv with mummy and ah yi.

1UF by end of this month please,
if can two would be best.


something happened today,
and i hope that bloody horny bitch would just fuck off and die.


well,
i love that one who calls me paper face so much.
never be replaced.
firstly,
i wanna apologise for whatever had happened today that almost made you went crazy.
secondly,
i'm happy that i know at least a bit of how you feel.
thirdly,
i promise you i would try to be the best gf ever.
forthly,
i hope you meant what you say.
I LOVE YOU

in a relationship,
there's give and take and it takes 2 hands to clap.



can't get to sleep.
moodswings.
swings
and
swings.

i miss that one who calls me paper face.

i'm sorry.
but,
i was just telling how i feel,
i hope you would understand.



you know i want this to work out,
you know i can't be without you,
you know how much you mean to me,
you know how much i heart you,
you know.
you know.

















if life is so short

i miss my dearest wife.
i miss that one who calls me paper face.
i miss that pig.

back from weekly movie.
watched Wimbeldon.
i swear the show is damn good,
watch it!



i miss my gf.



i wanna thank dex and deb.
thanks for being there when i'm lost and down.




There's this msg winnie showed me today,
i think it's damn meaningful.


there it goes......


""Too often we don't realise what we have until it's gone;too often we wait too late to say "I'm sorry, i was wrong".
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts;and we allow foolish things to tear out lives apart.
Far too many times we let unimportant things into our minds;and then it's usually too late to see what made us blind.
So be sure that you let people know how much they mean to you;take that time to say the words before your time is through.
Be sure that you appreciate everything thsat you've got and be thankful for the little things in life that mean a lot.""




Yes,
you mean a lot to me, you should know by now.

Everything just seem to be so wrong.
i'm sorry.



monks yesterday.
crowded.
saw many disgusting people.
gf came with gang.
something happened.
angry.









i'm sorry to have shouted at you, you know the reason why and please don't do it again.














late for work.
byes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEX!! I LOVE YOU! :) WE ARE THE PRETTIEST!!




back home from herstory monthly dance party at chocolatte.
something happened.
shan't mention it.
*sighs





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she ain't replying my msg,
guess she's asleep?
well,
i'm off to sleep soon too.



*poofs

Packed stock for new shop in far east for the whole damn day.
So fucking tired.
Today everyone just seem to be so dead.
Jasmine very tired.
Bernard sleep till drool.
Me?
Bad headache and nearly fell asleep standing.
Mainly i think is cause that fat arse was there.

Tomorrow Jasmine will go Far east already,
wonder how will work be without her.
MAN!!
Boring.


The last time i saw my gf was on friday?
Today's already wed.
5 days.
:(((

As my gf says,
we haven't been talking much lately.
I got work,
late home and she'll be alseep by then.
*sighs.

What can i do to make this situation turn out better?
*think hard.








we'll always be

Today wasn't my day, AGAIN.

After work,
went coffee club with winnie, ah weng, alicia, eddie, and winnie's sister.
Saw my last time manager from Breeks.
He spilt sugar syrup on me.
WTF.


Haven't feeling good for these few days,
insecure-ness is overtaking my usual self.
I'm so afraid that i might lose you.
The phobia is still deep within me,
after all those hurt i've been through in the past.
It's fear.


I feel that i don't know you well enough,
i don't know what's going on in ya life.
Somehow,
i just don't know about everything.



I'm getting so irritated by self.






I miss that pig of mine.







moodswings

I don't know what's wrong,
i don't wanna lie.
i told you the truth.
I know you're disappointed.
I know.
Everything's just memories,
it's already the past.

I wanna let you know that you're the only one in my heart.
Will love you and only you,
now and always.




*sighs

HOME!!

office.
appointment.
closed.

met pig,
passed her prezzie.
hope she like it. :))

miss slow says i look nice in shirts,
so does mr ray and bryan.
lols.





met kanie deb and cal.
pig came along. :))








I love that pig

Take the quiz: "What dessert are you"

cupcake
You are a cupcake! Innocent and sweet more than every one else. Everyone loves someone like yuo!




I'M A CUPPY CAKE!! =D

Work the whole damn day,
was so sleepy the whole way through,
nearly fall asleep standing. =Today is my day i think,
earned 20bucks commission for today. :))

Hmmm,
miss wohenmei dropped by at my shop today. :)
And i miss MR DEX and MISS NOR.
I so swear we need some outtings soon.
S-O-O-N!!!!

One more week to dexDEAR/fugly biatch's birthday. :))





My gf got a new nice blog template. :)))
I miss my gf. :((
and my gf says that i'm hot.
lols.

HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNI BABY!!


Time passes really fast,
we're already together for a month!
Although it's not very long,
but i believe we went through more then those couples who had been together for a month.


I LOVE YOU!!!!!!


I know we can make it through. :))))

Finally got to see that pig.
It's been a week since i've last saw her.
Caught "White Chicks".


Saw a doc,
gastric flu is definately not getting anywhere better.
Mr Flu is coming my way.
God damn it.


An hour and 45 mins more.
7th.
Our 1st month. :))))

I GOT THE CUTEST GIRLFRIEND ON EARTH!!! AND I LOVE HER A WHOLE TRUCK OF CHOCOLATES AND MARSHMALLOWS!!! =D



one more day to 7th! :)))))

Worked.
Tired.
Was affected,
but not now anymore.

Told pig about what happened,
somehow we talk a bit of things out.
Faith is all we need to overcome everything,
and i know very well nothing can tear us apart, right?
I treasure you, as well as this relationship very much,
want me to give up?
Not so easy.
Maybe HE can find some other ways.
Well as pig said,
planning a plot to murder him is not a need,
scratching his car is a better choice.

OH! and he said i'm actually very GOOD!
lols.
Say i good,
of course!
I'm treating that pig like some little princess now. =))


I love that pig.
and i still love that pig.
always loving that pig.
*snorts

Din blog for a day.
Yesterday was so sick,
the moment i reach home, puked.
straight away go lie on bed msg that pig till i sleep.
*burps.
Suffering from very bad gastric flu. =((

"Hei Shan Lao Yao" actually asked me somethingy today,
HE:Heard you quitting ah?

ME:Ya?

HE:Then what are you going to do?

ME: )@*&#(*!&@#*)@!# (Censored).

And he gave me that "Please lah, cannot make it one lah" face.
Kaos. so feel like slapping him upside down at that sec.
ok, i always wanted to slap him.
Castrate him!!!!!
B A S T A R D.
I will so go and scratch his car somedays.


Finally got to eat my Ya Kun french toast with cheese and kaya today.
*drools.
it's so yummy please.




Something not very good happened.



Din see that pig for exactly one week le.
2 More days to a mth! =D
very looking forward to seeing that pig 3 days later.




That's about it.
*poofs.





You know i'll always love you :)

HOME!!

supposed to watch movie,
but the time slot stucked up lah.
hanged out with eddie, lecan, deb and jas at Mr Bean.

I miss that pig.
Saw her today,
but was only a glance, less than a min.
Guess i will only be able to see her on friday.
*sighs.
A long way to go mans.








*off to kukuland









counting down, 4 more days to 1st month. =)))

Back home!

Had sushi with Winnie and her BF,Ah Weng at Parklane Edo Sushi,
3 of us we ate 60 over bucks.
GOD!
Don't see winnie so skinny,
she can really eat alot!!

Met kanie and Calvin,
it's been so long since i've last talked to Calvin so detailed-ly,
god knows how much i missed her? lols.


Hmmms,
somehow told Eddie that i'm gonna quit at the end of this month.
Winnie made lots of noise,
i bet she's gonna miss me when i'm not around. =)
No more smoking kaki,
no more gossiping partner.
No worries!!
We will still keep in touch!!
I'm turning 20 next year and i should live the 20 year old life,
RIGHT?? lols.



I miss Dex, Carrie and Nor. =((



I miss my pig,
it's been 3 days since i've last saw her.
Will only be able to see her maybe next week?
God. =I'm so gonna die of "xiang shi bing".

I love my piggie princess!

Work was fine today,
time passed extremely fast.
Maybe cause i was doing the sticking of stickers and everything else for the sales starting later.

Haven't been talking to my pig much,
i miss her. =(


And anyways,
i've got back my starhub line.
so i've got two numbers now.
Will be using both.





*sighs.
Having no time for my pig means i won't get to talk to her or see her often.
I hope we won't drift cause of that.
Will we?




Will be quitting this job by end of oct anyways..












You are everything to me