screwed; banged; fucked; torn; lost


i ought to be shot in the head; brainless creature i am.

work was horrid please, TOTAL HORRID!
how i wish i could get out of that place fast.
there's a limit to ones tolerant seriously,
sadly, he don't know that.

met up with my girl at city hall then headed to TPY.
headed to Pet's Lovers Centre to get treats for her 3 dogs.(((:

she pasted on plasters for me on my thumb. :DDD

well...

There's a 1 near to 1.5cm slit opened at the tip of my right thumb;
the work of a blade from the shredder that i normally use to shred carrots.

i got my pay from the other side this afternoon.
after paying my handphone bill, i have peanuts left.

girlfriend's not feeling good.
guess it's my turn soon, or maybe i'm already pms-ing now.(GRRRRR)
din got to meet her today.

hope to see her tomorrow if it's possible for her.
she haven't been studying/revising.
i'm worried.
but i shall not nag.(cause she says it adds on stress to her AND it's irritating)

i think i'm uglier now,
my face look like some 218974389 year old being now(i look so much older)
i hate the fact but yet love it.
love it cause nobody will check my ID when i buy ciggs and hopefully no HSA officers would approach me ever again asking for my ID.
i hate it because i look uglier and my girlfriend might dump me because of that.HUR.

well, haven't been talking to her much today.
or maybe the past few days, i kinda miss her stupid donald duck voice.
her silly face with her half chewed food in her half opened mouth.
i miss her touch and kisses the most.(don't think too far)
i just wanna see her that's all.sighs.


--my gunbound avatar datedue left less than 13hours i guess,
after 13hours all my archangels and phoenix will be gone, and also my panda stick. ))):




i hope to see you soon, please.

row row row the boat,
gently down the stream,
blahs blah blah²..

bored.
i miss girlfriend!! *cries.

din head to work today when i'm supposed to, overslept.
alarm rang and i don't even know. grrr.

1st half of the day suck,
but the other half was fun.
girl, i enjoyed myself with you today.(((:
and i'm all so excited for her,
cause she might be getting a new dog tomorrow!! :DDD
don't know why, also not i getting.hur.


i hope work will be better for me next week.
new month starting,
hope it will be a better month for me too. ((:






ok, off to play GB.








ilovethatgirl.

work sucked and it still suck, big time.
whatever


i've got new avatar,
but only for 6 days.(stupid)


/-i need a new way of life.


haven't seen her for 2 days,
plus tomorrow will be 3.
tsk.this is irritating.
imissher. ))):

a tiger will never know how a bird feels right up in the air.
it's like how you'll never know how i feel right now in this situation.
even if i tell,
will you listen?
or maybe i tell too much till you find that i'm damn irritating.
maybe i should just shut up.

work today damn sucky.
early in the morning got screamed at for nothing,
fucking bastard.

i can never do things properly with him around.
yes, maybe he was trying to help,
but everything still got screwed up.

i had enough of everything!!

thought my day will be brightened up when i see her,
ended up?

i don't know what the hell is wrong.

everybody will definately feel stress,
but i'm sure no one will know how the stress in me feels like.
i've got a weight in my heart that can never be lightened.
someone please do something,
or maybe, YOU please do something.
where were you when i needed you most?

i'm just saying how i feel,
maybe i'm wrong.
but maybe it's right.
maybe maybe...

i'm still wondering, why do people have to act this way?

TOAD FACEmy ever dearest -
always remember when everyone else turn their back on you.i'm still here alright? ((: cheers!

girlfriendi hate you, i still hate you.
but i think i love you more. RAWRS.

tiring day.
overslept this morning, din had enough sleep.
went to work with eyes half closed.

i've learnt new word today,
"baliu"(i think it's spelt this way)

life is so boring,
want to make it meaningful also difficult,
cause it's just too meaningless!

hirotei is supposed to give me my pay today,
but as usual, DELAYED.

tomorrow's working morning shift AGAIN.
sians whole.

haven't been talking to her much.
i bet she doesn't even know how much i miss her.
so what if she know? also like that.
RAWRS!!

have been very moody these 2 or 3 days.
the above explains why.

i'm still wondering and thinking what i want to do,
what is my dream, what is my goal.
my brain just ain't seems to be working at all,
cause every single molecule cell is only HER; she fills my mind.


oh, and i shall learn to be cool and don't bother.


the end

met up with kane, lerrick nancy and devon after work.

shoutings, screamings, cursings and swearings.

out of boundaries.

we advised, we talked, we bitched, we laughed.
stress is all i could feel when we talked about work,
when nancy actually asked me what i want in life.
i'm fucking 20 year old and yet i've got nothing.
no goals, got dreams that are unrealistic.
i feel useless.

i couldn't make my girlfriend happy,
cause i'm boring.
i know nuts that she know,
i'm boring.
i just can't make her smile.
i'm useless.

hello boring, you're god damned 20 year old!
do something efficient!
learn to not be boring!
stop feeling useless, cause that don't do any help!
ya ok, do something boring.
(sighs)

i missed her,
i'm missing her,
missing her so much.



can you make me feel?

Ice cream smashing onto your face,
next detroy those stones/bricks.
then off 'headache','impossible', 'narrow', 'volcanicious' and followed by some spinning of wheels.(it doesn't seem to stop spinning)

i miss my shit. *sulks.

went for kane's training for hands on today.
whoaa, damn shiok. (cause i haven't been exercising for centuries)
i even have difficulties taking off my sports bra for shower,
i can feel the muscles all so tensed up. =/
might be joining them soon.(i seriously need more exercise)
so much fun! ((:

caught "Benji" with darls cause "Mr and Mrs Smith" tix was all sold out for the time slot we wanted to watch. grrr.

gonna start work at burke's again on mon,
this time the timing is so much longer then before.
no time for girlfriend. ))): BIG SIGHS!
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!
i hope we'll still stay close even we don't have much time for each other.





youarestillmylove,myoneandonlylove.

me: i love you.
her: i love you.
me: i want you
her: i want you
me: muahss
her: muahss
me: .
her: .
me: you are my everythingg
her: you are my everything
me: HOR HOR
me: wrong
her: you just want t hear all these!
her: so you type i also will type
me: (:
her: LOL
me: ya lor
me: how clever
her: you fucker.
(((((:


i miss that girl.)):

i'm being ignored.


sometimes i wonder,
if it's the people around me changing or am i the one who is changing.
everyone seem so different to me now.
even the closest seem the furthest.
sighs.


i'm not suicidal, or maybe just 0.01%.
that's enough to kill.

all she could do is sit there and smile like some retard,
she look extremely ridiculous.
she doesn't dare to speak as she's not good with her words(scared to fucking xia suay herself what)
oh! i'm so sorry to insult you.
but i feel so shiok, what can you do? (:


today's our 9th monthsary.
happy 9th.

met up with dez, yuani and millie together with gf.
confronted those who think so highly of themselves(ok, not all.maybe only one.and you know who ((: )
somehow i still not very happy with those things she do,
and those words she said.

i've got a new found idol,
she's damn "HOT".
she has got a plantation on her face.
buttless, breastless and she shaved her eyebrows!
WOW! how cool. (((:
i like to comment and insult so much on my blog!
whoaaaa, i'm enjoying very much.

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she's too busy with everybody else.
i wonder how will she feel if she's in my shoe.
2149718280392109 times more piss then i am now i bet.
sighs.
friends are impt that is.
i've got nothing to say.
i'll fucking shut up and smile. (ya, like i can.)

i'm in a totally screwed up mood now.
sighs.
so unimportant, i am.(talking like that yoda)


why do you always have to act this way?

whoaa!
so what if i got fats around my tummy?
JEALOUS?
some people just don't know how to look into the mirror before bitching about any other people.(PLEASE LOOK AT YOURSELF!I BET THE MIRROR WILL BREAK AND SHATTER INTO PIECES THE MOMENT YOU LOOK INTO IT! MUAHAHAHAHA!!!)
i despise you! PUIS!


30 more mins.. (((((:

she's out.
i'm going out soon too.
heading to town with mum for a little shopping.

i'm so scared to lose you now.
i wanna be good,
let us both be good.
i'll shower you with all my love.


she's my shit, cause she calls me arsehole. ((:

2 more days.. ((:

met kane for awhile talked rubbish.
darls says kane's girl is hot.

i told kane i can be hot too.

1)get an ultra high fever.
2)get a sauna(kane said so)
3)get a sunburnt(another by kane)


met darls, she came over had lunch at my place.
she cabbed back after that.


I LOVE YOU.

i'm sorry to make you feel this way, i didn't mean it. i won't do it again.i still need you as much, things are not the way you think. do you still need me as much??

met darls.
walk from one end of town to the other end.
muahaha. fun.

cabbed to ECP.
darls bought her new blade.
i'm so gonna overcome my fear of breaking any part of my body.(yeah right bj.)

going tanning on sat with darls and everybody else.

i've got a lot of things to buy suddenly.
but i'm currently empty in my pocket(and my bank too)
lots of debts to be cleared,
over 1k.grrrr.

i need a job badly, any lobangs anyone???


oh,i realised something.
i have a supernatural power of sneezing energy.HAHAHA.
i can sneeze as loud as i can for people to take notice of ME ME ME!!
but i'm so sure that miss girlfriend is going to slap my head as hard as she can when i do that. =x


off to watch tv.
poofs*



ilovestrollingwithyou,justthetwoofus.