just came back from Kbox TPY,
syl jie's birthday,
felicia[issac], syl jie, bryan >=< and me.
happy birthday jie! =) I LOVE YOU. heh and of course faith.
yeaps,
and i know where my watch has gone to.
knnbccb.
shall not say in details,
but some fucker took my watch.
and keep saying it's hers. ARGH!!!!!!

my fossil watch, bought by my parents on my birthday 4 years ago!!!!!!
cost 168bucks k!!
kena one scratch i also heart pain,
NOW?!?!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
chee bye,
no matter what,
i MUST get my watch back,
in any ways i can think off, ANYWAYS!!
FUCKER.


work today tiring,
but fun =).
today me elfie and jasmine start off 1st.
than jane came.
than after that the 2 J(s) left,
to catch movie i guess?
than left me n elfie to pack those hats and caps.
than elfie's BF came to help out. heh. =)
i think both of them are so darn sweet,
compatible. =)

tomorrow gotta go pack stocks again,
left still quite alot,
hope we can finish everything,
cause tomorrow we're moving all those stocks to the new shop in Heeren le.
excited!

oh ya!
i din mentioned about this guy who came to teach us how to use the new cash register maachine?
or rather computer?
lols!
he talk like some.. don't know what lah!
just damn freaking funny k,
and we purposely ask alot of un-related question try to make him irritated,
but i think he was not irritated?
but happy?
LOLS. werid guy.
well well well........

hmmmmmm,
it's been 1day plus plus since i last talked to you,
think you busy with ya exams ba. =)
good luck for ya exams yeahs?
*IMU*
alot and many many many many many (infinite)
heh heh.

i just so love my PTBF, ------> it's part time best friend, not boyfriend ahs
she's just so cute larhs.
LOLS!!
*pinch*

ok,
i'm still darn sad and darn angry over my watch.
argh!
HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!!!


and i'm so gonna change my name,
no more bryan junior,
maybe........
brad junior? lols. that's what my ptbf suggested,
but i think,
it's weird lars,
why not call brad pitt? LOLS!!
but no matter what,
i'm still named as BJ. =)

*easonchen/kgezhiwang



am thinking of her,
constantly.
all the while,
she lives in me.

i'm waiting,
waiting for your love in return.
although i know the very day will never come,
but still,
i want to wait.

no matter how long it takes,
how much hurts i've got to take,
how many obstacles i have to go through.
it will always be you.
and only you. =)
*ILU*




**you're so beautiful, i really adore you.

*m2m/thedayyouwentaway


i think i'm falling sick. =(
today started work,
went down office to pack stocks.
TIRING!! *sulks

hmmm,
met a few colleagues today that i'm gonna work with,
they seem quite fun.
shall get to know them better! heh!
but i feel so outta place. sighs.

i think i pissed my PTBF off.
sighs.


feeling so sick, no mood to continue blogging,
i miss her so much. =(

just came back from hougang.
played basketball,
heh.
with a big bunch of guys and of course miss huiling who is also a basketball pro. =D~
met up with aizhen,anne,cindy and ernie,
cal=) came along.

cal and anne,
don't know what to say.
i wonder whyiee they just can't open their mouth and talk to each other,
they gotta write on a piece of paper,
then they start giving each other eye contacts,
*voltage too high.
heh.

well,
cal asked if anne wans to continue with this r/s,
she said she will think about it.
i can see cal reallie love her so damn much,
after sending me home from hougang to tpy by cab,
she went down to bt timah to look for anne,
good luck bro. =)

hmmmm,
and that miss siew mai became my bro!
muahahahhahahahaha.
bro. -.-|||
we are the skinny chiken and fat cowiee,
you know,
the cow and chicken cartoon? =stupid. lols, she's silly larhs. =)

loves loves,
+_+ i miss her.

*brand new pics uploaded.
me+cal.


ok,
we were just being lame lah,
and plus we just woke up. heh*
annie,annie,annie i miss U!!!!!!!!! ----------> that idert cal -.-||
toxic playing,
cal make noise only,
say this song make her think of anne,
CHANGE LARHS! frowns*


FOUR SKIN CALLED!!!
i was so scared they dua me can.
heh.
tmr start work as a part timer at the office first,
pack those new stocks up. beams*
but abit early lah,
must reach there by 10am.
sians half*
so tonight must sleep early,
it's a MUST!
am so excited!!!


ok,
my beloved binder cum ptbf wans to meet me tonight at 10pm at amk,
but so late? sulks*
ok,
let me think about it first.

stupid cal,
i say i wan go back sleep now than i go meet binder cum ptbf later,
than she say,
"SIAO AH, i let you sleep now later at night you cannot sleep tomorrow cannot wake up"
so did you realised there's no punctuation marks,
yes,
she talked like a machine gun. like my mother like that.
niam niam niam niam niam*

IMISSHER!!!!!!! CRIESSS!!!
ok this is me,
not cal.
i miss her lah, wah lau. -------> ok this is cal.
sial larhs,
two peeps with xiang shi bing,
mix together = ABSOULUTE XIANG SHI BING
THAN!!
we'll go SIAO together,
yes.
SIAO!
sial lahs.

this is from cal to bj..
new wan dun come,
old wan dun go.

sial lah,
it's opp can!! i swear you so fail ya cheena. tsk*
yar yar yar,
you don't tell me that,
apply it to yaself too pls.
ok, i wrong,
i apply to myself. =(
bully only.

ok larhs,
cal wans to go back home n take money,
HA!
I WAN FAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG,
ok,
both of us wans fag.
I'M SO HUNGRY LARHS!!
i'm like a inflatable chair,
no eat,
flat,
eat le,
fat + bloated.
sial lah!! lols!


okok,
off we go.
*poofs

walked home from ang mo kio.
*tsk
no money take cab home larhs,
what to do?
luckily got cal pei me,
if not i so lonely. -_-||

today was a boring day,
helped alvin to give out flyers for her salon,
but in the end no money take,
whyiee?
cause i gave out 4 by 4 to each person,
and don't know which idert go n complain larhs! *tsk
than the boss angry lo.
-stingy + small gas boss-
i would never wanna work for this kinda person man,
will SUFFER

while giving out flyers,
i bumped into my this long lost daughter of mine,
used to be from Gracehaven too. =)
well,
shall not go in details about how she is now. *secret

cal ah cal,
whole day using my phone msg anne,
my hp bill will go POOOMM i tell u. =i won't be surprise if bill comes with 3 digits. -_-|||

she ahs,
try to msg anne stupid msges,
and anne happily only reply back one word to every msg she sent,
they are,
"nope", "cannot" and "fuck off lar"[ok this is exception, 3 words]
haiz, so sad for her~!? ------> written by cal, she's sad for herself. lols.
cant stop thinking of her the whole fucking day, -----> by cal
have to get myself drunk to slp.. (*_*) -----> cal again, zzzzz.

aiya, no point thinking so much lah,
give her time to sort out her thinkings k? -hugss-
hmmm, meantime ahs,
go get a job,
occupy yaself with all the time you have with work,
and you won't think that much yeahs?
that's what i'm gonna do. *heh

talking about all these ahs,
actually i myself also can't stop thinking lah,
thinking about those thingys,
that i shouldn't be thinking about?
or rather,
i should lah,
sort my own feelings out too. blahs

i miss her. CRIES.


ok,
and cal shall sleep on the floor today,
don't wan share bed with her,
so big size,
kian that time one enough le.
can you imagine kian so skinny already almost kick me down the bed,
cal? HA! i think i'll fly to my livin room ah. LOLS!!
bleahs

Someone once asked me.

"Does anyone know a girl who lives at Toa Payoh" or some Toa Payoh Girls' Home marching if I'm not wrong.

I said.

"Yes. Her name's Zhumei."
Lols.

In any case, I love Mr Zhumei!

-Zhumei-

me + cal = sworn bros

it might sound lame to you,
but to us,
it's definately somethingy. =D


supposed to go uncle's shop again,
LAZY!!
plus am having terrible headache,
but what am i still doin online?
play gb?
heh²!


oh ya,
and i din mentioned in yest's entry,
kanie asked me to join her for bike pract,
still considering,
but if i wan,
i would wanna get a vespa when i get my license. =D

*am gonna get my car license when i'm the age of 21.

had dinner with family,
ate deer meat,
herbal chicken,
hot plate toufu =D~
and otak!!
heh. yummilicious. *slurps


after that went braddell,
met up with cal, kanie and deb.
cal and anne,
timed out? *sighs
tried to console her,
but whatever i say just won't go into her head,
like what "she" said,

i'm calaffair,
sit down there act pretty also no use.
lols.
like wth? -.-||

cal left after drinking 3 cans of tiger,
i shared.
kanie deb and me was discussing what to get for someone's birthday,
it was crap lah!
but am very excited about buying all those stuffs. heh.
fun fun FUN!!
shan't go in details what i'm gonna get. heh. =D

well anyways,
that's all for today.


and,
cheryl,
pls take good care of yourself,
you're sick. yeahs? -hugss-

*frankieJ/don'twannatry


i'm scared,
scared to feel hurt again.
whyiee?

i'm asking myself to not fall,
not to fall any deeper.
but it ain't working?
i'm falling hard and fast.
whatever?


noone's home,
bored.
noone's online to talk to,
bored.
no food to eat,
HUNGRY!!!!! *sulks

I WAN FOOD!!!


i need some binder and cal.
*boohoo
i miss them.



zhou chuan xiong - wo zai shen bian ..... to u

*leannerimes/plsremember


Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
I'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
And remember, please remember me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this heart was yours and mine
And how a dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I knew that you had me

Please remember, Please remember

am VERY happy,
for certain reasons. heh. *grins

my com ok le! =)

monks was great! *beams
had lotsa fun,
i guess i've lost weight. lols.
bj danced?
yes!
LOLS!!

oh ya,
and i saw someone who look so much like her at far view,
and it's dark.
i was on stage i saw her on the dance floor,
went to take a closer look,
but nahs,
not her.
think too much le la!
-slaps self-
and,
i'm glad to see you happy. =)


well,
today's sis's birthday,
happy birthday lili sis, be good ya?
hmm..
need to go,
having high tea?
ok,
ya.. =)

whatever

i don't wish to talk about all this freaking shits anymore.


i miss her.

was at uncle's shop just now,
i wonder whyiee 100.3FM can't stop playing sad songs,
blahs.
earned 20 bucks today,
am gonna spent it all later,
i guess.


com down again,
now am at cine.


heading to monks,
with whole bunch of them.
my float, serene's birthday. =) happy birthday float -hugss-


now,
off to play c.s. *beams

ok,
now 11.37am.
supposed to go work at uncle's place,
but when i finished bathing,
yes, only when i finished bathing, (not wols at all what)
than i realised i got SORE EYES!!

argh, not again, i hate sore eyes.
had it last year dec,
and i swear it was torturing me like hell!
spent so much money on docs,
and 70 bucks at TTSH.
just for a pair of freaking eyes.

called,

me: hello uncle?

uncle: oie (you know how normal elderly would say when you call them)

me: i today cannot come again, i think i got sore eyes.

uncle: ni you zai gao she mo? aiyois, hao la hao la.


LOLS! wo mei you gao she mo la, you think i like to have sore eyes?! -sulks
ah! pain! =(

want to go back sleep,
but can't!! argh!


sylvia jie called,
she's trying to get money for someone,
shan't mention name cause it isn't a good thingy.
why is jie raising money for her?
cause she got into trouble!
at court, verdict over le,
is either she pay a fine of 600 bucks,
or jail (don't know for how long).
wish i could help,
but sorry.
i can't even help myself le. sighs.

am feeling better now,
later i won't know. //mood swings might swing their way here.
she deleted my link from her bloggie. sighs.
i don't wish to think anymore,
i'm totally drained!
drained drained DRAINED!

the song by dreamzFM - bu zhi de,
darn nice!
sighs.
but yet sad larhs.
am trying to use this song to console myself,
to ask myself to give up.(yes, both) blahs.



*unbreakmyhrt//

i swear my eyes are so gonna drop out soon.
it's 4.56am and i'm not asleep yet.
gotta wake up at 10.30am later? wow! 5 hours of sleep.
i'm gonna go my uncle's shop like a zombie.
played gunbound.
used to think it's a darn lame game,
but now..
kinda ok larhs. heh.


my mood got better,
maybe cause i was too tired to think.
sighs,
i miss them.
ha! yes! THEM!!

well,
guess i better go catch some sleep 1st,
but 1stly,
let's take a few puffs of heavenly made products,
my FAG!!
adios! =)



*hopetomorrowwillbeabetterday.
i mean, later. =)

*dreamzfm/buzhide





that's the end of EVERYTHING
she broke friendship with me.
cheryl? hur. i don't know.



#03,
don't worry,
i'll do as what you said,
i'll leave you alone.
pls do take good care of yourself,
no matter what happened, be strong.
i know you will =)
lead a blissful life, pls.




i'm so sick of everything le.
EVERYTHING!
*grr
forget about everything,
everything
n
EVERYTHING!


if she would be happier this way,
i'll stay away from her,
as far as i can.
i've caused her enough troubles,
enough.
sighs.


how am i feeling now?
i don't know.
all i know is i'm in terrible pain now,
*heart.
eyes are watery,
tears rolling down my cheeks,
i just couldn't stop them from flowing.


[energy-missing you.for you #03]


*i cried you a river.

*jolin/lovelovelove


zhumei got nokia 6230.
*jealous.


zhumei: when i grow up and get rich, im going to change phone every month, mei ge yue huan dian hua

me: if it's me ah, i'll change phone every week, without tade ins.

zhumei: how can ppl just use big and bulky phone with basic functions.

me: use to hit people

zhumei: LOL

me: like don't know how many donkey years back

zhumei: those water bottle phones right, the lao da use.

me: tt brick phone? use to hit people one, ni bu ting hua? *KOK*

zhumei: can drink from the antaenna.

me: LOL.

zhumei: you watch to much tv la, haha.

me: you worse ah, watch too much cartoon, drink from antaenna somemore!




LOL, i wonder i wonder.
zhumei's so darn cute! *pinch
i also very cute. lols. =s



gosh,
am gonna have a d.AHs outting later.
heh. am so excited!

*sings
my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard
and they're like it's better than yours
damn right it's better than yours
i can teach you ,
but i have to charge.
*shakes booty LOL

d.AHs got ourselve a friendster profile!
email addy: d_ahs_rawk@hotmail.com


heh.soon we're gettiing ourselves a d.AHs bloggie!
cools.
Akiee, Mr Ah K,
Bubu, Mr Ah Bu,
ILU*!!



d.AHs will stay together, always =)

now i'm left with many contradictions inside of me.
yes,
bungs always contradict themselve,
esp me. [sorry fellow bungs out there, i mean not all yeahs]

seem like tomorrow will be a "si qi" for me,
i would expect a tight slap from her, serious.
sighs.


/blame it all to myself, i deserve all these mans.

talking to her. *beams

well,
i gotta be strong. i know.
i'll try my best.


am meeting cndy my binder cum PTBF for dinner!
p.s//PTBF = part time best friend.
*bounces

*GarethGates/sayitisn'tso

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five atleast we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

*energy/missingyou.


today, 20th April.
Marks the end of me and her.
she initiated a break up.
i must learn to hold my tears back,
i ain't gonna cry.
whatever

i'll let her do whatever she wants,
and i wanna learn not to give a damn anymore.

everyone's getting on my nerves



uncle called,
ask me to go down help out.
no mood
i rejected him,
although i'm in need of cash, but what the hell?


and #03,
am sorry for whatever that had happened,
i'll tao hui qing bai for you.
and after that...i'll leave you alone
yeaps.




*/shattered-d.hrt

oh ya,
and did i mentioned working in my uncle's shop was boring,
and it's gonna be more boring as days passes by.
cheat my money,
told me $5/hr, in the end only $4/hr. *grrr

ok,
met up with kian, serene, lili and joyce after my work.
kian and serene was being such arses, was late.
made me wait for freaking 45mins or more.
went up cine 9th floor to play games to kill my time while waiting, The Hulk.
kian called at that time when i almost jump into the com(that game was rather interesting) saying will reach in 5 mins time.so obviously i ended my session with Mr Hulk and went down to meet them(the SOOO loving couple,kian and serene).

cine is having some Qoo thingy right?
i don't know whyiee people just love it so much.
Late le, that two sooo loving couple still can stand at the Qoo thingy exhibition look look here n there. =well, i shan't be small gas.
they're forgiven. *psst

ain't playing any music. *quiet.

i need a clear piece of mind to think,
everything that had happened is definately not good.
i've hurt one,
i've got the other one into a bad reputation.
i feel like a total shit.
i need to sort out my feelings so badly,
can someone just tell me what to do?

i thought everything would be fine,
in fact, it turns out to be disastress.

i seriously feel like just giving up everything,
to save all the troubles.
but just what is holding me back?

i ain't wanna hurt anyone no more,
not myself too.



*/sinking.hrt./ost

rumours rumours.
who is those bitches who is spreading around thingys about me, cheryl and her.

don't let me know who are they,
i fucking won't let them off.

it's being darn unfair to her now tt you BITCHES are spreading things that has got nothin to do with her.
everything's my fault!

LISTEN UP!!
EVERYTHINGS MY FAULT!
NO ONE IS TO BE BLAMED.

so fucking wanna gossip,
you bitches and bastards can bad mouth me,
i don't give a damn.
but just not HER.

whoever you are, you have got 2 choices,
1)let me find out ya identity myself and you better watch out.
2)admit to whatever "good" deed you had done!
if you don't wan anything bad to happen to you, i suggest you choose option (2).
damn you.


bitches and bastards,
this is esp for U!

F-U-C-K O-F-F

feels like crying my heart out.
everything so tied up inside.

i miss her so so so much.

*norah.jones/turnmeone



Like a flower
Waiting to bloom
Like a lightbulb
In a dark room
I'm just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on

Like the desert waiting for the rain
Like a school kid waiting for the spring
Im just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on

My poor heart
It's been so dark
Since you've been gone
After all you're the one who turns me off
You're the only one who can turn me back on

My hi-fi is waiting for a new tune
My glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes
I'm just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on


//comeonhome.

*beenieman/bossman.ft.ladysaw&seanpaul



yawns.
start of a boring day,
once again.

went ta eat breakfast cum lunch cum high tea with mum at opp blk 45 hawker.
i wonder whyiee parents nowadays have to be so calculative over money $_$ . -chingching-
ok,
can't blame,
maybe as for my parents' situation,
i gotta try to be understanding.
dad's company am closing soon. yeaps.

mum keep forcing me to help out at uncle's shop,
located in kallang, near the stadium?
$5/hr.
will be working there till my new job starts.

she din msg me,
din reply my msges.
oh ya,
time out. sighs.

*seanpaul//getbusy



time/4.26am.

still can't sleep.
although my eye lids are shutting,
but,
my brain are still functioning quite well.
guess i think too much le ba.

but just can't help thinking?
think of what?
EVERYTHING!


talked to my binder, cindy just now.
sighs. i don't know if what i did is right,
i don't even reallie understand what she was talking about just now.
but anyways,
i betrayed her trust?
blahs.
i feel shitified la huh.


the fear in me is growing as each day passes,
who knows what would happen tomorrow?
who knows.


it's been a week or so since i'd last saw you.
monday would be our 2nd mth,
if we're without this time out thingy.

the "we'll go thru every obstacles that we come across" thingy didn't came to use?
we said that! din we? sighs.


i feel like i'm invisible to you

*"say it isn't so" songie by Gareth Gates.
lyrics very darn meaningful.
comes to use.

i kinda miss all her nonsenses.
or rather,
very the miss all her nonsenses. =


//unbreakable fragile.hrt

*98degrees//d.hardest.thing


one whole day is almost over.
mood was sucky.
feel so tied up inside.

my 6th sense was never wrong,
you're not gonna come back,
i sense.

this time out supposed to be a break up?
i assume.
yes, i assume.

den d other,
.....................................................................
it's still you la.

it's boring,
no one's online.
friendster got cocked up.
there's nothing for me to do,
besides blogging? yawns.
life's boring.


//untie my knot

*britney//toxic

cal called.
should i go out, should i not?
i'm lazy, eyes might close any moment. -yawns
although it's only braddell, still...
i need to get my butt off this chair that i had been sitting on since eleven in the morning
and i'm totally strengthless to drag myself off this chair.

mum & dad decided to leave me all alone at home.
no dinner provided,
gotta spend money AGAIN!!
i'm officially broke.

i'm all so excited about my new job coming up!
i'll be working in heerens,
Four Skin.

Dream also never dreamt that there will be a day i'll be working there!
wooo,
cool huh?

the clothes there are niceieeeeeeee.


ok,
i think i'm goin to meet mr calvin.
i'm hungry,
i need to eat!
-poofs

These pics were taken on.. don't know when.
But it's not long ago ones.
LOLs.

Me + Ben = d.retardation.inc

all thanks to miss siew mai that i got my new bloggie addie. lols. xie xie ah. =)

half of today is boring, another half ain't gonna be any better.
am stucked at home.

too darn tired to move my arse off the chair that i'm sitting on now.
plus,
my explorer ok le!! so i can do whatever i want!! =D

lols, ain't it obvious? if i won't have this bloggie here.
happy happy happy happy happy.

i'm in love with the milkshake mtv. -drools



//starts to rot even more