everything is not gonna be easy for me i guess,
i'm already feeling part of the upcoming misery i'm gonna get.

drinking has became my hobby, i'm a alcoholic now.
only you can save me i guess.
but i know things ain't as simple as it seems,
i feel like giving up, even when nothing even started.

call me a coward,
or rather i'm just afraid of my past.
whatever shit that had happened to me before,
whatever consequences i get.
how i'm had being taken granted for,
and how i got hurt.
i don't wish history to repeat.
i just wanna settle down that's all.

work at 11am,
feeling kinda tipsy but can't get to sleep.
prison break is keeping me awake,
but i am not able to catch what that episode is takling about cause my mind ain't here.

what i want is very simple.

/later

i've finally lighten that weight in my heart,
i feel so relieved. (:

ace was in a big mess last night,
all the spraying and at our table you can see food on the floor.
cause at the beginning when people are having fun,
i just can't stop eating! haha.

awaking with curry chicken rice with kangkong & vitagen! (:

off to work.


i don't expect anything back from you, at least i'm happy now! (:


/later

some random pic took at maggie's house door. burgee and her said i look like construction worker! POUTS!



we are lost kids outside mos. ):



you know what? i feel like shit.
and again, only those who know will know.
you know, i just wanna be there for you, nothing more then that.
and i still don't know if should tell you how i feel.
SIGHS BIG TIME!



/later

my mdm msg me from switzerland! hahah, so sweet of her. (:
faster come back and take nice nice picture with me, then i'll take you to movie! :P

this morning the moment i woke up,
i felt so stress, so confused.
don't know why, for nothing. (those who know will know lah)
sighs!
shit.

all i can do is to stand by you.



/later

i feel like an idiot.
bahs!

the stupidest fool ever alive!



/later

i'm like a fucking emo freak now.
PUI!

off to bed lah, sickchild!
tsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsk!

how i miss .......



/later

i think i'm becoming alcoholic.tsk.
that's not a very good sign.

had been feeling so shitty these few days,
kinda upset too.
hiding ya feelings for someone ain't a nice feeling.
kns.

no hopee



/later

i'm feeling confused.
only those who know will know. (:

tomorrow store meeting @ 930am.
yawns.
then will be helping out @ shaw's bazzar. YAWNS!
they better not play christmas songs,
they are lullaby(s) to me.

i'm feeling not here not there, who do i really like?! EEYUURR!!! ):

as i said,
only those who know will know.


/later

today is a fucking tiring day.
bad mood these few days, like some mad dog.
how i dread going to work.
simply just so lazy.

Naruto is the only thing that keeps me entertained for now,
how boring can a friday night be?
irritating piece of shit!

met up with the neh ji(s)- xx & maggie, burger, jae and mavis.
had dinner at vi'lage, the old marche.
slacked at spins.
had sunkiss t twist(s),
got fucking pek cek because of the fucking weather.
took cab back with mavis.


i feel so good after telling you how i feel; special one.i wanna see you again. :)


/later

MOS with syaz, cal, ah jun. peishan, felicia and of course my special guest chermaine; my mdm, along with her friends too.

mdm promised to take nicer pics with me.
these 2 are quite random.



chermaine trying to be funny and thinks she can take our face.LOL.



look at our messy hair!


training later!
i'm starting to miss you.




/later

mummy got me tigger t-shirt, MY FAV!
i'm one happy boy now.
hee. ((((:







/later

D&D was fun!
i was so fucking nervous even before i went up the stage for my competition,
goodness, my hands were stone cold please.
i din win in the end, LOL!
so expected lah. ):
never mind, i din win not because my singing wasn't good,
was i too nervous stand down there and never move! -.-
so ya....

went pool session with cine team members,
then headed off to boat quay.
wanted to club...
but monday no clubs!
so went movie with collin instead.
watched saw3.
too bad james can't watch, so wan wuu went off with him.
it's R(21) anyways.

oh wellss.......






B.I.R.D annual D&D 06` held at Raffles Hotel.

short one and evelyn.



kotek(s)!



irritating short one who always call me mushroom head.tsktsk.



kotek fiz!


wan wuu giving flower to his idol BENSON!LOL!!



Cine Team! (:

that's mel.


ok, video of myself at the competition.see it for yourself, i stood there like some idiot. most importantly,
DON'T LAUGH!







i miss you...



/later

i swear i'm going crazyyyyyyyyyy

tomorrow is D&D and i haven't decided on what song to sing yet.
tsk.

i'm freaking tired now.
i'm going to bed.

goodnight world.




/later

haven't been updating due to some stupid problem with my explorer.
made me so pek cek these few days. want to die you know!

today is the KOTC(King Of The Cage) day.
venue at our dragon's very own gym,
the 1st KOTC in Singapore. (:
xiao long fought in the 1st match and he won! :D

setting up of cage in progress......
Day 1.


and before the match...



Our fellow dragons with OUR CHAMPION and of course our master;







and there will be another KOTC in March,
whoever interested can come and watch, ticket price unknown.
so ya. (:
when march is here, i will update again.


alrights,
heading to bed already.
tomorrow got work.
tsk!




/later