i know that fucking kpo will come read my blog.
so here i have a warning for you.

WHOEVER DARES TO GO NEAR MY GIRLFRIEND, THINK TWICE! BETTER WATCH OUT!!!!!

caught star wars III.
9 peanuts out of 10.

met up with yuani and dez together with darls for the "da xiao ren" session.
whoaaa, i feel so shiok after i did that. HAHAHA.
have never felt any better. grins.

headed to far east for dinner then sent darls home.
she kept smiling to herself on the bus, so funny. (cause she thought of the past)

she told me things that i always wanted to hear,
i'm so happy now though i'm feeling kinda sick. (((:
those words make me feel i'm on cloud 9.
i wanna hear it from you more often. (((:

she's taking 123821907481 years to blog,
wonder what is she blogging about.


i'm crazy, already crazy, long ago crazy OVER YOU.

i'm sick,
mum says i'm running a fever.

everything was ok today,
now she wants me to leave her alone for a week.
and she refuses to tell me what exactly happens and what she's feeling now.
as usual, i know nothing.
sighs.i don't know what am i to do now.

no one knows how you feels?
or am i always the last to know?
or maybe i'm always the only one who doesn't know?



no idea, but it's breaking my heart.

I'm PMS-ing.
i'm in a terrible mood now.

done nothing today,
worked(siansations).
and i fucking haven't got my pay yet!!
all the fucking ccb(s).

had been playing iwin.com games the whole afternoon.
not bad.

anyways,
i'm starting to hate.
hate what?
don't ask, cause i don't know.
myself maybe.



jie shou

tried to act cool?
not even please.
he's a loser; sore loser.
he's a sissy; so sissified.
he's a gay; so gay!
his face is so funny when he look scared.
you make me look down on you,
you make me feel like spitting onto your face.
who do you think you are??



darl's out with parents now.
so sians without her.))):
m` missing her so much.
boohoo.

we haven't been talking to each other much,
that doesn't make me feel very nice.

she's moving nearer and nearer to me,
i'm so happy.(((:
that means, i can sneakily bring nice home cooked food for her.


gotta go work later,
triple siansations.

why is all these happening.
it's all my fault,
i caused it all.

please forgive me,
i don't want things to turn out this way.
i'm sorry.

i don't want you to go,
i can't let you go.
i mean it when i say i can't live without you.
please, you know i love you.
)))))))):



i know we can make it through...

to whoever it may concernYOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!
don't you think you're too much to scold your own friend and MY GIRLFRIEND "fuck you"? you know what, you totally got no right to do so, no matter what she does. so, move ya arse and go bother about your own business and stop all your nonsense. i appreciate< this. (((:





met darls str8 after her paper today.
went town.
caught "Kingdom Of Heaven".
i give the show 3 apple pies upon 5.

worked.
i hate it when they dragged the time when it comes to giving our pay cheque.
this place is even worse then burke's please.
I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GIVE ME MY PAY!!!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRR.




miss girlfriend :


I know at times when things happen, i'm not always there to give you hugs and protect you over storms and rainy days, i apologise for that. I wish i could be there for you whenever you're down and low.This 8 months and and going 10 days. We've been through many ups and downs, those that i believe not any other couples out there would go through.There's so much more we have to go through, so i hope the bond between us will be stronger then any others.((:remember, i've said no matter how hard i have to try, how long it have to take, i will still hold on to you and our relationship tight and work things out for the better(i promise)we'll change for better and so other people out there will be envious whenever they see us!(THE SWEETEST COUPLE EVER)horhor?okok?i love you so very the much,i will never let go of you no matter what, you don't let go of me too?i want to be your lover, your hubby and your friend, 3 in 1 girlfriend, how about it? ((((((: we will share with each other our joy and sorrows from this second on.i'm glad to see all that you've said.(very happy indeed!smiles.)shopping soon ok? i never forget this promise. and will get you your beads k?and you really will be with me no matter how ugly i become in the future??(((((:

i don't know what's wrong.

everything's my fault.
blame me for everything.

beat me to hell.




i'm sorry, just don't leave me alone.
we need to learn to communicate and understand each other.

haven't been talking to her since yest.
i miss my girlfriend so much. )):


she's packing her stuffs now,
gonna study later and i'm going to work.
i think won't have much time to talk too?
faster pack finish your things! )))):

we're starting freshly all over again! ((:

i'm glad that you told me what you want,
do tell me how you feel in the future please.(and of course what you're thinking.)

i love you sweetheart.(soon will be till the fullest! for you too?) ((((((:
you're my EVERYTHING!

I don't care if i break down. And if I cry a little, die a little, at least I know I've lived with you.

I realize the best part of love
is the thinnest slice
and you don't care for much
but I'm not letting go
i believe there's still much to believe in.

Lost in love and I don't know much
cos I'm thinkin aloud and I fell out of touch
but I'm back on my feet and eager to be what you wanted.

So lift your eyes if you feel you can
reach for a star and I'll show you a plan
I've figured it out what I needed was someone to show me.


i'm missing you, are you too?

i'm learning how to hold my tears back,
but they just roll down my cheeks without my knowing.

god, please teach me.
tell me what to do.
show me the way,
stop me from feeling this way.
there's too much i need to say,
but when i want to say,
those words just choke up at my throat.

lord, please tell me what she's thinking,
i need to know.




ease my pain.
Take my hand, touch my face
Let me feel your embrace
Let me see in your eyes
That you won't say goodbye
Just tell me how you feel
I don't know what you're thinking anymore.
And if you need me, you'd kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you'd show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You'd hold me in your arms where I belong

I looked out of the window,
cold breeze blew against my teary face; i try to dry them up.
I tried to lighten the pain i have in my heart,
but seem like the hurt on skin is nothing much to compare to the one in heart.


somebody please tell me what to do.


she's leaving.....



please don't leave me behind..

sometimes when i ask too much is cause i care,
but by asking too much you will say "i can't stand you!".

you know at times when i feel i'm nothing,
you make me feel i'm something.
but there are also times when,
i feel nothing,
you make me feel totally useless,
as in really useless.

when you feel that i don't love or care for you anymore,
you're wrong.
maybe i'm just showing in a different way.

i never ever thought of giving up on you,
no matter how tired it gets,
no matter how hard it is,
no matter what,
i will still hold on to you; hold on to you tightly.

i maybe someone who has got no patience,
someone who has got foul temper, stubborn and stupid.
but when it comes to you i'll try to raise my percentage of patience,
lower the percentage of my foul temper, stubborness and stupidness.
cause you are the one i want to spend my life with.

i hope to change for the better,
will you too?

i want to give anything you want,
as long as i can do it, i will.

i know i can give you happiness,
the kinda love you'll never imagine that would come to you.
you're my angel,
you lighted up my darkened life.

I'll find an infinite reasons to love you.

let's work this out,
can't we girl?

you were my life,
and you still are.
let me protect you,
let me be your wings; i wanna make you fly.
let me show you,
i'll show you unexpected happiness in this love.
let me be the one and only one; i want to share your joy and sorrows.
let me hold you tight and whisper softly into your ear,
that you're my only love; i can't live without you.
you know...

she never tell me things,
she never talked to me about her problems.
i know nothing but others knows many things.
how useless can a girlfriend like me be?

anyway, it's our 8th month and a day.
i wonder if you were happy with me in the past,
i wonder if you are happy with me now.
there's so much we need to talk,
there's so much i need to know about you,
there's so much you need to know about me.
why din we ever sit down and have a proper heart to heart talk?
i never know your opinions and thinkings to things,
and of course me and US.
when you cry,
i don't even know,
i wasn't even there.
you never let me have the chance to be, cause you never wanna tell me what's bothering you.
each time i sense that something's not right,
i tried to ask but all i get was "i don't know(s)".
i kept asking and that led to my irritating-ness.
i don't know what am i supposed to do is right.

i know at times, it's really my fault.
i did things i'm not supposed to do,
i did things you dislike.
and all i could is nothing but spilling all the apologys out.



you're feeling unimportant now,
i wanna do something.
please tell me what to do,
cause what you're feeling now is all not true.
you're everything to me girl.

i'm sorry.
i'll do anything to make it up to you.
i need to know,
tell me things please darling.



i haven't been feeling stable emotionally recently, tell me why.





you whispered something softly i'm not meant to hear,
baby, tell me what's on ya mind.
i don't care what people say about the two of us from different world,
i love you so much that it hurts inside,
are you listening?
please listen to me girl.

i hear you on the telephone, god knows who, spilling your heart for free.
everyone has someone they can talk to,
girl that someone should be me.
so many times i've tired to tell you,
you just turn away.
my life is changing so fast now,
leave me lonely and afraid.

can't we try just a little bit harder?
can't we give just a little bit more?
can't we try to understand that it's love we're fighting for.
can't we try just a little more passion,
can't we try just a little less pride?
i love you so much baby, that it tears me up inside.

don't let our love fade away,
no matter what people say.
i need you more and more each day.

i don't know what's wrong with me.

i'm feeling emotionally unstable,
I AM FUCKING EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE. FUCK IT!!!!!!

she's sleeping already.


sighs.
moodswings.

i'm sorry about what happened these few days,
i haven't been emotionally stable.
i don't want things to turn sour,
stop all these shall we?
please darling,
can we be better?
i know we can...




i love you too much, sorry for reacting this way.

that skinny girl of mine is sick.
=/
please take care...




somehow,
i'm just not feeling nice.




i miss her.
)):

the most boring thing i did today; work.

tomorrow's school holiday,
public holiday i supposed so.
labour day?

but ain't gonna see her tomorrow,
so that's accumulation of total 2 days of "xiang nian" and "shi nian".
faster faster tues then can see her already!



jui shi ai ni; for YOU; my only.