i said something wrong today,
and i think it hit darls quite hard into her face and heart.
but i was just kidding.
)))))):
i'm sorr.

she came down raffles to find me today,
rushed off from work to find her at the mrt.
i was supposed to make her study chinese,
but i see her so stress like that,
how am i supposed to make her study when she's in that state.
well, darls,
don't get too stress k?
hugsss.


darls mum saw me at her house bus stop,
sighs.
din expected this kinda thing to happen.
i'll learn to be more smart.
sorry darls.
))))))))))):

i can't afford to let anything happen again,
i can't afford to lose you.
no matter what,
i'll hang on tight, and i hope you will too.
i love you.



darls studying now,
i hope she's doing fine.
god knows how much i miss her.
sighs.
`m missing you much much.




/you are my everything.

went to work this morning.
was late for an hour plus.

met darls at cine,
she cabbed down.
shopping day today for darls.
eh,
she owe me something for our 5th month prezzie ok!
so long already,
lol. and i'm too shy to ask. =D

she bought one green fourskin mini tee, another top from karma and a big huge green color mambo pencil case. (she can put her head inside)

wanted to watch movie but there ain't any nice shows.
i wanna watch "an series of unfortunate events".

met my son; Kian.
very the disappointed. (shall not put in details)
but son, please be more smart.
her friend came along,
he's a fucking lamer.
full of cold jokes.

sent darls home,
she wasn't feeling well and still not feeling well.
running a fever at 37.8 degrees.
sighs,
hope she gets well soon.
darls,
don't get too stress over ya studies yeah?
m` always here. (((:

oh,
she acted like a small kid,
saying that her name is jojo(her dog),
and she got 2 dogs name amanda and bj.
-.-||
you can't make me stop smiling.
cute like anything lah ok! lols. ((((:




i'm the happiest moving creature on universe.
i wanna love you till i DIE!
never leaving you, i swear.

ain't feeling nice.


the thought of me having to go to work tomorrow morning just turns me off totally.
grrrrrr.


din talk much to darls the whole day.
her tutor called and cancelled tution today.
made me din see her today.
sighs.
m' missing her so much.

darls went to sleep,
but when she wake up she never call me.
))):
she went online.
couldn't find her songs and she pek cek.
then yadaa yadaa.
sighs.
she everytime never reply my msg.
no msg from her also.
maybe she was busy.


at times, i just feel so unwanted by you.

Can't We Try

/girl, let me be the one and only. let me and you feel love. let us be happy.

never work today.
darls just ended school and i can't see her today.
)):
she having tuition later.

i wish i could hug you to sleep.


m' missing darls so much.

i feel like a total bastard, arsehole and jerk now.

don't ask me why.

i just feel like one.

my heartaches to see you like this.


worked.
met up darls and the rest but without lionel.
watched "hide and seek".
not bad.

Chingay today,
town was quite packed.


i don't know what's wrong with darls.
sighs.
she said i'll be happier without her,
she's totally wrong!
i'll be NOTHING without her.
she doesn't want me to treat her good.
she wants me to treat her the way she treated me,
double of it.
i can't do it.


sighs.
let me tell you,
i will treat you the way i wanna treat you.
and that is i'm gonna make you MY princess,
i'm gonna treat you good, very good.
i said i'll try my best to do my part in this relationship.
i will change,
my attitude,
the way i talk,
everything.

i love you,
and you know it.
i love you more then anyone before,
and more then anything now.
it hurts me to see you like this.








/laters

i love the way we touch. ((((((:

blogger sucks ok.
it's in chinese.
grrr.

i'm getting sick.
pukie feeling,
flu.

never darls today.
darls having tuition now.
)))))):
i miss her.

today a new malay girl came interview.
starting work in kitchen tomorrow.

woff to wait for darls to end tuition.
anyways,
hope to see her tomorrow.
i want to fetch her go school in the morning.



girl, you know how much i love you.
treat me and you better, please.

yesterday's;

V.Dae celebration day.
4 couples. (((((:
went town,
alot of arcade sessions.
then headed to Marina South.
arcade again,
then darls and i went to fly kite. =D
but no matter how hard we try,
the kite still refuses to fly.
never mind,
i promise darls i'll fly with her again.
(((:


wanted to book a maxi cab for 6 of us to go back to Tampines.
but wait too long,
we managed to get a comfort school bus to get us home.
heh heh.
how cool can this get.
darls and i alighted 1st,
then sat at playground for a while.
darls got me a bracelet. (((((:


might be seeing her later.
((:

You are homosexual.


What is your sexual orientation?
brought to you by Quizilla

went to godma's place.
collected quite a number of ang baos,
but still not as much as darl's.
grrr.
))):


i miss that stupid girl,
haven't been seeing her since tues?
god knows how much i wanna see her.
but she doesn't miss me as much as i do miss her.
hurrss.


/laters
)))))))))):


i wanna see you soon, see you fast.

mum didn't call me just now,
so i claim that she doesn't want me to be over at my granny's place.
who knows,
the moment i sent the msg telling darls this,
she call and ask me to meet her at amk mrt.
grrr.
it's gonna be so boring,
granny's gonna nag,
uncle's gonna nag,
auntie's gonna nag.
i'm prepareed to bring a whole big packet of cotton there.
and i don't know what to wear.

should i take out my piercing should i not?
hmmmmss.


darl's over at her granny place too,
at sembawang.
so near yet so far.
))):


was looking at all those pics we took,
i realised we look so good together.
really!
=D
darls thought i was drooling over her pics.
she claims that she's very pretty.
ok,
indeed very te pretty.
(((:
i love this silly darls of mine! ((((((:




i wanna be with you till i D-I-E!



/off to get ready to granny's place. grrrrr.

For so long
You and me been finding each other for so long
And the feeling that I feel for you is more then strong, girl
Take it from me
If you give a little more then you're asking for
Your love will turn the key

Darling, mine
I would wait forever for those lips of wine
Build my world around you, Darling
This love will shine, girl
Watch it and see
If you give a little more then you're asking for
Your love will turn the key

I, I just want to be your everything
Open up the Heaven in your heart and let me be
The things you are to me and not some puppet on a string
Oh, if I stay here without you, Darling, I will die
I want you laying in the love I have to bring
I'd do anything to be your everything

Darling, for so long
You and me been finding each other for so long
And the feeling that I feel for you is more then strong, girl
Take it from me
If you give a little more then you're asking for
Your love will turn the key

I, I just want to be your everything
Open up the heaven in your heart and let me be
The things you are to me and not some puppet on a string
Oh, if I stay here without you, Darling, I will die
I want you laying in the love I have to bring
I'd do anything to be your everything

I, I just want to be your everything
Open up the heaven in your heart and let me be
The things you are to me and not some puppet on a string
Oh, if I stay here without you, Darling, I will die
I want you laying in the love I have to bring
'Cause I'd do anything to be your everything

just when i thought erything's fine; it hurts.
i've dropped my tears for you again

darls's going to aunt's house fot reunion dinner.
am gonna stay at home to have mine.
wells,
i still have to wait till thurs then can see her.
grrr.
still a long way ah,
if everyday passes so slowly.

only without her time passes so slowly,
but when i'm with her,
the time pass so damn freaking fast.
grrr.
i don't like ok.
))):


not gonna visit my uncles tomorrow.
cause they are all useless fuckers,
am gonna head to my maternal side granny's house in the evening tomorrow.
to have dinner with her i guess.
so called reunion dinner again.
and it would be the 3rd time i'm having it.
=/

today's a boring day.
a moodless day.
currently having serious moodswing,
cause i misses darls too much.
)))):


i wonder if she does miss me as much i do misses her?


dad's doing work,
mum's preparing dinner.
and i'm rotting my way here,
and in front of the TV.

i want to see darls soon.
it would be better if i can see her now,
right away.
=/


i misses you a whole lot.

worked.
supposed to meet darls,
for a while.
but now don't know still meeting not.
i doubt so.
i miss her.
))):


listening: Paul Anka- I Don't Like To Sleep Alone

darls sent me this song, i think it's damn meaningful.
i want dedicate this song to her. ((((:


Paul Anka - I Don't Like To Sleep Alone


I don't like to sleep alone
Stay with me
Don't go
Talk with me for just a while
So much of you to get to know
Reaching out touching you
Leaving all the worries behind
Loving you
My mouth on yours and yours on mine
Marry me
Let me live with you
Nothing's wrong and love is right
Like a man says in his song
Help me make it through the night
Loneliness can get you down
When you get to thinking no one cares
Lean on me
And I'll lean on you
Together we will see it through

No, I don't like to sleep alone
It's sad to think some folks do
No I don't like to sleep alone
No one does
Do you?

No, I don't like to sleep alone
It's sad to think some folks do
No I don't like to sleep alone
No one does
Do you?

was supposed to meet darls today,
but last min i got a reunion dinner with family and one of my auntie.
gonna have another dinner on tues night again.
=/


i miss her touch,
i miss her hugs,
i miss her kisses,
i simply just miss her. ))):



am gonna see her only tomorrow,
which is our 5th.
(((((:

time flies reallie fast,
one blink and we are together for coming 5 months already.
i'm glad i have her,
i'm glad she's the one.


for this 5months,
we've been through thick and thin.
we definately have been through more then what other couples did.
and i hope,
no matter what happens,
no matter what comes between us,
we will overcome everything bravely together as one.
(((((:



and,
i want darls to feed me century egg porridge.

tanning.
mr sun went out for lunch and mr dark cloudie took over his shift this afternoon.

after tanning,
we headed to cine for lunch; yoshi.

after that,
we went to this place behind somerset mrt,
beside comcentre to sit down.
it was a starry night,
we kissed under d starss
i'm a happy boi today. ((((((((:

no quarrels today,
only laughters and more laughters.
i hope everyday could be like today.

i swear cat and lionel is the funniest couple i've ever seen in my 20 years of life.
lols.
fucking cute.


1 more day to 5th

girl, you know i need you.
i swear i love you and it's true.
you are the most important thing in my life. =D

home.

wahhhhh,
called her like 2810371298 times and she didn't pick up,
and she's away from msn.
wonder what is she doing.
sleeping??
never mind, shall just wait for her to call me back.
tsk*

was supposed to meet darls today,
but she brought ah jo to vet,
and went to buy stuffs with her mum.
)))))):
3 days never meet le.
i miss her so much.


went city hall after work.
went to look for our book.
found a cute and safe book,
so nobody would read it.
it comes with a "padlock" and keys.
it's from Happy House.
((((((((:

went to look for sis at herwork place; carrefour.
saw the girl whose working with her,
whom my sis claimed that she molested her in certain way,
she's ugly. =x

ok,
and the management there suck big time.
i was holding on to plastic bags my sis passed to me and she asked me to go out and wait for her while she go and get her bag.
the bloody so-called security person stopped me,
thought i stoled their stuff.
oh please lah,
want to steal also won't be stupid till the extend that i'd put them in CARREFOUR'S plastic bag.
and my forehead didn't wrote "hello, i stole ya stuffs".
whatever.


bought our anni's prezzie for her.
it's something she like.
(((((((:


tanning tomorrow with darl and friends.
am going her house downstairs to fetch this little princess of mine.


oh,
Bob and Dhalia's out of town; KL.
got Bob to take a look out for Vans for me. ((:




i want us to be FOREVER ALWAYS!

darl's sleeping.
i think i'm gonna sleep soon too.

i hope everything would be fine from now onwards.
i want us to last.


i think i got the cutest girlfriend on earth,
she change her tone of voice and talk like a small girl,
damn cute please.
((((:


din meet her for 2 days le,
will be meeting her tomorrow and she said she will come fetch me from work.
ok, let's see if she will come.
she better come!


today at work kena sabo-ed again.

grrrrr.
no call no show,
call them no answer if not off phone.
i think maybe next time i should try to do this ah.
like very de fun hor.
grrr.
never mind.


anyways,
i miisss my girlfriendd.
i wonder if she's dreaming,
and what is she dreaming about?
sweet dreams i hope.


alrights,
off to sleep soon.


goodnight darling.

goodnight world.








/learn to cherish.

tell me what's wrong with me,
tell me what's wrong with you,
tell me what's wrong with us.
i'm breaking down.

why can't we stop quarrelling for just a day?
why can't we?
i didn't know a quarrel could hurt so much.




we need to learn to cherish.

i miss mine.
din meet her up today.
and she's having tuition now.

work today was blahs,
Yesmin din come to work.
i was left to die in kitchen,
but luckily bob came to rescue.
orders came in non-stop and i missed out one pasta order.
grrrr.

went back home straight after work,
as darls say so.

/laters









i wonder how is she doing right now at tuition. i wonder does she think of me.

worked.
bloody hell me and siti kena sabo-ed today.
maisara last min never come work,
also din bother to give us a call and inform us.
knn,
one whole cafe, only me and siti.
want go toilet also difficult.

had alot of things undone even after i end work.
did till 4.30.
girlfriend got angry with me cause i went off late.
sighs.

met darls, emi, dez, cat, lionel, millie and lawrence at TM.
went to look at phones with darls.
no nice phones now.
tsk*
even got also no money buy.


sent her home.

met dez and took train back together.



please treat me better, love me more.
i hate to quarrel.


the tears that i've cried for you,
is more then enough to fill the pacific ocean.