no words to describe,
i'm still somehow alone.



who can i run to?

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I don't want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two,
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

Is more than words, more than what you say
is the things you do,oh yeah
Is more than words, more than what you say
is the things you do oh yeah

Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

she will never need me again i guess,
or maybe she never did.

i don't know.


i can still feel the pain

time doesn't heal,
it only help you to get use.




kelly clarkson - where is your heart



i don't believe in the smile that you leave
When you walk away and say goodbye
Well, I don't expect the world to move underneath me
But for God's sake, could you try
I know that you're true to me
You're always there, you say you care
I know that you wanna be mine

Where is your heart, cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart, what I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard to give me what I need
I want your heart to bleed, that's all I'm asking for, oh
Where is your heart

I don't understand, your love is so cold
It's always me who's reaching out for your hand
And I've always dreamed that love would be effortless
Like a petal falling to the ground
A dreamer following his dream

Where is your heart, cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart, what I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard to give me what I need
I want your heart to bleed, that's all I'm asking for, oh
Where is your heart

It seems so much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
Oh, anytime you need
Baby, it's just you and me, oh yeah

I know that you're true to me
You're always there, you say you care
I know that you wanna be mine

Where is your heart, cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart, what I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard to give me what I need
I want your heart to bleed, that's all I'm asking for, yeah

Where is your heart, cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart, what I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard to give me what I need
I want your heart to bleed, and that's all I'm asking for
Where is your heart?

i'm tired,
dead tired.
i really wonder why, sighs.



anyway,
self mutilation is a good way to lighten the pain inside of you.

broke a glass,
tired to catch it,
glass fell onto my hand and there goes.
couldn't stop the blood for awhile.
the flesh and skin was nearly off the place they were supposed to be at.
i din feel the pain,
instead my heart aches.
cause she din care,
or maybe she did.
sighs

i need medications please.
i can't stop feeling what i'm feeling now.


both physcially and mentally tired,
i'm like a broken down machine.
i need some repair,
i need her.

oh, how much i miss her.
i feel so hollow without her,

are we really fated to be together like what you said?





you still here?




micheal buble - home


Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

i hope everything will be fine soon.
i seriously need some medication.
for what?
i think you guys no need to know for now.

forcing myself to do lotsa works so i won't think so much,
so ya.
now i'm dead tired.



goodnight world,
goodnight my love.

hates,
lies,
pain,
heartbroken,
tears.

40sticks cigg,
bracelet broke,
green lighter fell apart,
beers,
vodkas,
head spinning.

she,
happy,
free.

i almost forget,
i got no right to anything.



absolutely zero

be happy, i don't wish to see you this way.
if ever someone better comes along, go.



stop the rain.

i don't blame you,
neither do i hate you.

it's just me that i'm behaving and feeling this way,
i got over the limit,i went crazy.
i couldn't control my emotions.

haven't been sleeping well for the past don't know how many days,
couldn't concentrate on any single thing i do, esp work.
smoking my useless life away.

no mood to carry on blogging.


whatever

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside anymore
Anymore

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Sometimes I feel so alone
I call your heart
But there's no one at home
Taking a toll on my pride
I'm reaching out
But there's no one inside
It doesn't feel right, when I look in your eyes
I know love is blind, but the heart doesn't lie
I'll ask one more time, maybe this time you'll try
So tell me girl what's deep in your heart
Girl I care 'bout you
I'm there for you
So why don't you care for me
Like I care 'bout you
I spend like all of my days
Trying to cess out just how things got this way
I thought that we were in love
But I swear right now I don't know what you want
I make sure that I give you quality time
But lately I feel you're not home by design
But still I'm gonna try, you're the love of my life
In hopes that you will open your heart
Sometimes I'm not sure
I'm all you've got
Sometimes I'm not sure if you love me or not
One thing I know Girl I care for you
And the one thing that I want is that you care for me too

everyone's ignoring me.

i'm a fucking loner,
a god damned big time loser.


kill me.

i can't erase the pain,
when will it go away?
i light ciggs one after another,
i'm just smoking my life away.
only ciggs can make me feel numb,
on my tongue, my head and my heart.
wasting my life away,
desperately hoping things will turn out right.
now, i'm trying to let nature take it's cause.
things will turn right, left, centre, up or down?
if she's willing to let me in her heart and mind,
let me see and feel how she felt or feeling right now.
cause i know nuts about anything now.

like what others always say,
love is a word that is short and yet hard to define.
it's complicated and painful most of the time,
the sweet memories are always short.
why is that so?
love is great isn't it?

come to think of it,
love took alot of lives away from this planet and it's still taking.
so painful that one will turn suicidal.

what is the no.1 killer singapore?
smoking? aids? cancer?
love will be one of the top 5.

my mind went suicidal just now,
hoping to end my life and so everything will come to an end,
the pain is so great.
i can't imagine if there's really another party,
i would probably jump immediately out of my window.
HA.
confirm die, 20th story.

ya, but that's stupid and childish to wanting to end ya life.
and leaving all the pain to those who would still be living after you're gone.
damn selfish.

i can't belive i'm listening to sly's song now,
meaningful song, but i can't stand his voice.
oh wells.


if only she knew.

i can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

For you,


总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
天使它一定能够,感应

如果天空只剩最后
一颗闪烁的星
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让幸福为你指引

总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
天使它一定能够,感应

once again,
i watched you from the back, walking away from me.


i feel the pain.

yu heng - yi ran shi peng you


i'm tired,
but i can't get to sleep.
the moment i close my eyes,
i see us happy together,
knowing that it's not reality,
i teared.

when will all these pain go away?
when will i be seeing you again?


come back home soon please.

Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby

I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more

Look ahead tomorrow long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine don't let it go
You're the only reason that i'm growing cold
What would I do without you

andy lau - yue lao


i don't know how to explain how i feel.
i got no motivation or mood to do anything,
all i could think of is her her and HER.

i'm going crazy,
i hope i cry till i go blind.


be happy girl.
just to let you know,
i'm missing you alot.







somethings are destined to be

i held the picture with you and me close to my heart and washed my face with tears to sleep.


i thought of the day when we 1st went out,
i thought of how i wanted to hold ya hand on our 1st day and yet missed,
i thought of the 1st time i kissed you,
i thought of the 1st time i hold you in my arms,
i thought of the times when you always look for me at work in heeren,
i thought of the times when you sleep on bus and kept jerking(how i made fun of you),
we laughed together.
when i thought of all these,
i cried.

how i miss you so much,
how i long to hold you back in my arms once again.
the smell of your hair and your perfume.
girl, i miss you so much.

i know myself that i can't live without you,
i can't be without your love.



i'm sorry,
i need you badly.

fate
destiny
love
hate

which one will give the answer?


letting one go ain't easy,
but feeling the pain is a every min thing.

i don't know what i'm talking about,
but that's what my heart says.



leave it all to love, i say

stared blankly into the air,
i wonder,
i reallie wonder, what have i become?
lunatic.



i'm hopeless.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold on
On to a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

ai wo hai shi ta


sleepless nights, endless tears,
why aren't you here?
it's driving me insane.
just where are you???

why do you treat me like a stranger?
i feel unwanted.
i feel lost.
i feel depressed.



maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe.






you don't know how much i miss you.....

to someone i dearly love,


i'm lost for words,
all i could feel is the weight in my heart.
what have i done.
i'm breaking down, i need you to help me up.please.

i've never stopped loving you and i never will.


i'm sorry.


if one day you really have to leave me, remember no matter what, i'll still be loving you.



someone who have let you down.

some people just can't keep their hands to themselves,
stop going around touching people like they're yours, esp my girlfriend!!
whatever.