Adam Sandler-I wanna grow old with you.

just for her; my darling.


I wanna make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all i wanna do, is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice, growin' old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you...







i love you, and i wanna do this till the day that i die.

don't know what the fuck is wrong with everybody.
esp HER!
grrrrrr.

entry of yesterday:
worked.
cleared all the fridges in kitchen.
did inventories.


met dez after work at raffles,
headed to city hall to wait for the rest; darls, emi, cat and lionel.
went far east, lido, wisma, cine then heeren.
shopped, ate and played pool.

then after that,
darls, emi, dez and me went off to coffee club to eat.
muddy mud pie and baked bolognise spag.
cabbed back to tampines,
darls half way felt like puking.
in the end puked all those that we ate out.
-.-||

missed my train,
dez left without me.
i took bus 28 back home.
long journey,
but got darling to pei me on the phone. (((:


we'll stick together no matter what happenes, i promise you i'll never leave. (((:



i think S710 is nice.
*drools

hey shitface,
if you just so happen to drop by my blog as a PASSERBY.
listen up,
scold my girlfriend?
i'll see you soon.
scold my friends?
i'll still see you soon.
wanna touch my girlfriend?
come try.

i despise you,
you're a fucking sore loser.




grow up please.

met lionel at tampines after work,
headed to millie's house,
with darls, emi, kaku and cat there already.
michelle came after awhile.

millie's house is a beauty salon.
gf painted my left fingers black.
no license one,
all kena the side of my little pretty fingers.
lols.
darls and emi both were busy plucking my eyebrow,
when i got none?


hmmm,
and i realised there's too many shitfaces around.
those shitfaces who provoked my girlfriend,
and her friends.
please,
be wise abit.
ABIT will do,cause i know you all these shitfaces will never learn how to be wise.
get ya noses off other people's business,
when you can't even handle ya own business properly.
you think you're oh so capable.
OH!
and that irritatedpasserby at mille's blog.
i so swear you so fucking asshamed of your own name.
LOL!
you're a sore loser.
JOKER LAH PLEASE!


my girlfriend is fucking pissed now,
and she thinks i'm irritating.






/laters
(i've got more to say)

i'd be faithful to you



i miss darls.


=((((((((((((((

back from work.
din meet darling today.
=((

darl's angry with me cause i din reply her msg while at work.
i din tell her that i continue working till 6plus.
sighs.
i'm sorry darls,
please forgive me.
=((((

back home.
worked.

went down tampines to meet darlinggg.
together with emi, cat, lionel and millie.
headed to millie's house to watch "taxi".
lionel and cat watch halfway sleep ah!
darlingg also.
=/
gisele bundchen..
whoaaa!
but darlingg still hottest. ;)



sent darlingg home.
took train back,
saw my school junior whom i don't know.
lols.
i wonder why some people just can't stop staring,
this malay couple sitting opp me, kept staring at me like i'm some monster from mars.
wth.
feel like gorging their eyes out.
pluck out the guy's balls,
and peel off that woman's cheebye.
grrrr.

met kane and aileen for awhile.
kane's an stupid idiot.
silly too.
msg me and compare whose cuter.
i tell u hor,
mine the cutest ok!
=D
you go and die ah kanie.
hee hee.


alrights,
mum din cook my dinner.
bought food back for myself.
gonna go makan now.
darling's not replying my msg,
not phone, not msn.
*tsk.


*poofs.


I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!


only you. ((((:

darls got tv,
ignore me already.
=/

i tried to change this damned template till i want to die already.
my sister smelly mouth say i never save later all gone.
reallie gones,
redo again.
wah, anybody know how to get rid of that stupid blogger banner thingy up there?
block my damn day and date,
see already not happy.


darls!
dump ya tv and come back to me can!
=(((

went for dinner with family,
ate a whole loads of rubbish.
lol.
i swear i gained 10kg.


had a not small not big quarrel with darls.
we said we'll start anew,
nono,
not as friends.
we'll change for better.
so people who is interested in my darls,
BACKOFF!!
i bite!


i'm glad to just see a sentence msg from her,
saying that actually i mean alot to her.
=)))))
that sentence brightened up my moody day.


wells,
supposed to meet dez, emi, cat and lionel.
they were supposed to come toa payoh and look for me lah.
in the end one msg also don't have.
tsk.
so bitchy.


i wanna love my girlfriend till i die ah!
i swear!
i will never let go no matter what.
never let go even if you die die want to.
i'll irritate you till you die!
heh heh heh.



love me more please.

my heart's aching, felt like it's being stabbed an infinity times.

my head's exploding.


Public holiday.
Hari Raya Haji to all my malay friends out there.

out with darls, emi, dez, lionel, kaku and michelle.
supposed to go Kbox,
in the end ended up watching movie.
"Omen".


had a big quarrel with darls just now,
we fought.
i lost.
i cried.

i'm sorry to have hurt ya hands.
sighs.
this is the 1st time i went so crazy for my own girlfriend.
be honoured,
this shows what you are to me,
you mean a whole lot.



we quarrel too often,
i don't want.
as you say,
it's not good.
somehow i think it spoils our relationsip.
once in a blue moon is fine.
the best is don't quarrel at all.
i guess we need to sit down and talk.




oh,
darl imitated my every moves.
damn irritating can.
but damn cute lah. =))))
can't stand her ah.





we need to talk.

worked.
daddy din come work today.

went down tampines to find gf after work.
when reach she was with millie.
then while on the way walking to meet cat and emi.
she saw her aunt.
ate yoshi.

emi went to find dez,
cat went to find lionel.

me and gf walked around like some wondering souls.
smoked.
she burnt a beautiful hole on her shoe.


sent her home.




i wanna know what went wrong,
i wanna save this relationship that's supposed to be so beautiful.
i want it to be beautifully gorgeous again.
i want us to last.
i want us to be eternity.
please,
you know i love you.

for you,

I don’t ever wanna lose you baby
I always wanna be with you
All you gotta do is learn to trust me
And I promise that I will stay true

I don’t ever wanna lose you baby
Always wanna be with you
All you gotta do is learn to trust me
I promise that I will stay true

I know that it’s been hard on you
And I know that I’m not always with you
But you need to know that I do love you
And forever that’s the way it will stay

And I know it’s hard to trust me
When I’m always out with all my girls
It’s my job and I will never be broken
When I go home, it’s with you I’ll stay

I try too hard to keep this going
And I will as long as you do too
Plus I love you and I will always will do
I only wanna be with you

I wish I had a sign to show you
You mean the world to me and that’s the truth
I don’t wanna be with no one else, girl
I only be with you

Chorus

I don’t ever wanna lose you baby
Always wanna be with you
Do is learn to trust me
I promise that I will stay true

Trust me ‘cause I love you
I say I love you ‘cause I really mean it
I never felt this way before
Look at pictures of me when I’m gone, girl

I’ll be the one you breath
Oh, wait you’re the air I breath
Inspiration, you’re the song I sing

I don’t ever wanna lose you baby
Always wanna be with you.


----------------------------

i know i've done things to make you angry.
to make you feel numb towards me.
but i'm already trying my very best to change for you,
changing for the better.
girl please,
give me some times and i promise i'll be what you want me to be.
i'm all willing to give up and do anything just for you.
i can never do without you,
you know that.

please,
i know you need me.
i need you as much too.
my love for you have never ever change a single bit,
instead it's growing.

just a day not seeing you,
i'll start to miss you so much,
how i wish i could hold you in my arms all night long and tell you how much i do love you.
i wanna be there for you whenever you want me to,
i wanna be the one and only for you.
i wanna shower you with all my love and care.
i wanna be with you till i die.
please,
i promise i'll never make you angry ever again.
=((((((((



the thought of losing you is scaring the wits outta me. i fear of losing you.




-------------------


i would give you anything,
just to make you happy.
i'll go to hell back over and over again,
just to prove how much i need you here.
there's nothing i wouldn't do.
i'd cry for you,
i'd lie for you.
i would die for you,
yes i will.

just watched finished "Bridget Jones" on vcd.
funny show.
well,
romantic in some ways too.


darls is sleeping now,
wonder if she's dreaming,
and what is she dreaming about if she is.
hell,
god knows how much i miss her.

sighs*
i think i make a lousy gf.
i've totally got no time for her.
she said i wasn't there whenever she needs me to.
i want to be there for you,
and always will be there.
i can give up anything for you.

even thought of not working and spend more time with her.
get a very part time job during her school hours and so i can accompany her.


i'm sorry for neglecting you while i'm at work.
you've said you understand,
but i know you totally don't feel good.


i hope that if there's things,
you'll let me know.
please.



i want us to last till eternity.
i love you more then anything else on this universe.
believe me.







/laters.

to: just you:





I want a little of something more
Dont want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last

Sat that you love me, say Im the one
Don't kiss and hug me, and then try to run
I dont do drama, my tears dont fall fast
I want a love that will last

Chorus:
I dont want just a memory, give me forever
Don't even think about saying goodbye
Cuz I just want one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die
So..

Call me romantic, i guess that is so
Theres something more that you oughta know
No Ill never leave you, so dont even ask
I want a love that will last...Forever
I want a love that will last

(Instrumental)

Chorus:
I dont want just a memory, give me forever
Don't even think about saying goodbye
Cuz I just want one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die
So..

Theres just a little, more that i need (more that I need)
I wanna share all, the air that you'll breathe
Im not the kind of girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last..forever
I want a love that will last...always
I want a love that will last

I want a love that will last

now i'll do a brief update on yesterday's outting.

town with darling, dez, emi, cat and lionel.
me and dez waiting for them at somerset mrt.
then headed off to cine for lunch at yoshi.
then headed to lido,
then far east.

couples took turn to quarrel.
1stly was dez and emi.
then darling and me.
then cat and lionel.
grrrr,
darling and me quarrelled the most time i guess.
far east is a place with not good "feng shui".
or maybe i'm a jinx?
blahs!

had dinner at far east,
my all time fav; curry chicken.
then headed down to cine thought of playing pool,
but there's not enough time.
so we just slack around.

ohoh, and about the toilet incident.
the girls and i thought we saw GHOST at the B1 toilet yesterday.
in the end me and dez went back to see again,
the woman came outta the toilet.
lols.
think too much.


oh wells,
now for darling and i.
whoever starts a fight.
fine 20 bucks.
but for her,
i've decided to raise it to 200 bucks.
cause 20 bucks is nothing to her lah.
it's a deal.

won't be seeing darls tomorrow,
working late shift 11-7.
and she'll be having dinner at home.
=/

i hope to see you soon,
real soon.
i miss you ah.




you the only one.

nothing much to say,
i'm sorry to have screwed up your life.






/i fear.

today's not a bad day.
not that bad.
at least i get to see my darls.


today is reallie a "want my life" day.
daddy din come to work today,
sick.
luckily bob came to help out in kitchen.
today orders come in like water flowing sia.
=/


now i really believe in what darls say.
do not let go whenever someone come between us,
something bad will happen.
this time i die die also won't let go ah!


darls not feeling well now,
having headache.
sleep early ya?



tomorrow got work again,
8am-2pm.
sians.





gonna meet darls tomorrow again! =)))
together with the rest,
emi, dez, cat and lionel.









you'll always have my heart.

worked.
bad day to start with.
was late for an hour.
kena fucked like hell.
grrrrr.


didn't managed to meet gf today.
she had tuition.
i'm glad that she is able to cope with her studies now.


everytime she starts to open her mouth and scold me,
or say me.
my heart aches,
till the extend that no words could come outta my mouth.
i couldn't speak out.
i don't wish to quarrel anymore please.

i hope everything would be fine now,
i hope god would answer my prayers.


as for now,
i need you to know that i love you.
and i really do.







am missing you so much.













/please father, listen and answer to my prayers.

her feelings for me is fading,
fingers are pointed straight into my face for something i didn't do.
i swear i've never done anything to let you down,
i swear i've never done anything behind your back,
i swear i've never cheated ya feelings before,
not now and never.

i love you wholeheartedly,
and this is what i get.
i've never have my eyes on anybody before ever since i got together with you.

why can't you believe me?
why can't you have any trust in me?
you rather believe what others say then to believe in what i say.
what have i done wrong to deserve all these shits?

is loving someone reallie so difficult?


i can't believe all these shits are happening to us.
why must god be so unfair to me?
why must all these fucking shits happen to me?


WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BELIEVE ME???????????
WHY CAN'T YOU JUST HAVE SOME TRUST IN ME????????



i'm lost,
totally.





my own girlfriend doesn't trust me AT ALL!











please god, i've done nothing wrong. PLEASE!! don't take her away from me. i beg of you.
i can't do without her. i reallie can't. she's my everything. taking her away is equally to
taking my life. if you reallie wanna take her away from me. take my life instead.
i can't live without her, i would rather die.

worked.
nelson start work today.


rushed down to town to find bee's.
emi, dez, cat and lionel was there.
quarrelled.
shall not say in details.
but,
this is the 1st time,
i ever cried in public,
for a girl!
sighs!
BIG sighs!

well,
everything should be fine by now.
but i need to balance off well between gf and work.
yes,
gf is very impt,
1st priority always.
but i still have to work in order to earn money for my own living.


bee's,
i know it's difficult for you.
but i seriously need your understanding in that.
no matter how long it takes,
just as long as you try.


i hate quarrels,
they scares me off totally,
T-O-T-A-L-L-Y!!
i'm so afraid of losing you even till now.
i'm so afraid that you will just walk out on me,
because of my work,
my attitude,
or maybe even you fall for someone else.
i fear a lot.

maybe i really don't make a good gf,
i make a fucking bad gf.
but i promise to treat you better,
must better then now,
then before.
for you i'll do anything,
i'll try my very best to be the best gf ever.
you are my everything.

i'm sorry for yest's attitude.
no more quarrels please gf?


tmr working 7am-7pm.
feeling damn stressed over work too.
everyone's just so.. not real.
sighs,
wells,
i need to do for a living.
what more can i ask for?
they pay me to work.



bee's, you're everything to me. Please trust me in that,
trust me that i'll love you till the very end of time.

larling broke my heart just now,
not once but twice ah!
bahs!
but never mind,
she knows that it's not right to say that kinda thing.
so please don't do it again.

it seem like i had been sleeping the whole day,
i got off my bed at 2 plus.
ate med,
eat,
watched blade trinity then off to bed at 4 plus again.
just got up.

i told larling to wake me up at 7.30pm,
but she never.
guess she's sleeping too.


the week after this,
i'll be working 11am-7pm.
i won't have time to meet up with larling.
only on sat.
sighs*


oh,
larling just msg me.
she din sleep.
was watching tv ah.

alrights,
off to watch tv too.
tadas.




/i hate nightmares, they make me cry.

out with emi, dez, cat lionel and my pweeetyy bee's.


caught "seed of chucky".
i expect it to be very scary,
but CHEY!
not even,
damn funny only.
gf keep saying i scared cause i held her hand very tightly,
is i scared she scared can.
no excuse,
it ain't one.
=D


wah,
today damn angry sial.
shall not mention it anymore.
don't let me seeeee THAT ONE again ah.
so..
eeekss.


gf demand me to call her larling.
so not used to it can.
and she keep complaining that i not gentlemen,
never open the door and let her go in/out first.
sorry lah,
no habit what.
i'll try to make it a habit just for you la ok?


sent bee's home.
cabbbed back.


oh,
i'm here to officially announce that i'm totally broke now.
bee's shall yang me from now.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS.
yes yes yes.



and and and,
I'M ANGRY AT MY FEET!!
don't want say why.
cause it's very the paiseh.
=DDDD





i want us to be eternity.

070409.
our 4th.
=)))))
Happy 4TH!


worked.
shagged.

met bee's.
wanted to watch movie,
but in the end never.
met emi, dez, cat and lionel.
so called,
triple dating?
(sitting down at rockys doing nothing)
=/

got bee's and myself ring.
carved 070904.


although it was quite a tiring day for me,
but i'm still happy.
oh,
but unhappy at certain things.


nvm,
overall still happy,
cause i've got bee's.
(but i'm still not happy ah =/ )



wells,
bee's,
listen.
i'm glad that i have you by my side.
i'm glad that you're mine.
i'm glad that i'm yours.
i'm glad that we're together.
overall,
I'M GLAD!
yes,
and i love you. =))))





i love you and i always will.one word to describe the feelings i have for you. T-R-U-E!




/laters

i only want my gf,
i only want amanda.
=(((((((((((((((((((((((((


i only love you

met gf after work.
went town to meet her.
walked around to look for her pencil case,
she's too fussy,
so in the end got none.
i tried to make her finish her homework,
it's just a piece of worksheet lah.
in the end she left one question then don't want to do already.
tsk*

sent her home,
took 518.
she complain that my shoulder not nice to lie on.
tsk*
gf went back home already,
then i msg her to bring the stuffs she bought from taiwan for me down to give me,
cause i don't wanna bring it and walk around tomorrow.
actually it's only an excuse to see her a little while longer. =x
cabbed home.

gf's moodswinging now.
=/
don't swing already lah,
i'm feeling damn drowsy now lah,
*floats
ate med.

gf, i love you lah.
don't swing already ok?
HUGS YOU TIGHT TIGHT!!





no one else come close>, you will never be replaced, and because you live,if not i'll be absoultely zero.

doc.
a lot of med.
throat infection, swollen.
hydrochloric acid invading gastric,
causing cough.


George got involved in an accident in the kitchen,
hope he'll be fine soon.


got miss gf a Paul Frank wallet,
met her.
am a happy boi now.
*wide grins.



how i wish everyday could be like today,
how i wish i could stop the time from running.
if i could stop,
i would stop the time at our sweetest moment.

morning world.
din work today,
on MC.

was coughing the lungs outta me last night,
in sleep at all.
kept waking up to puke.
tsk, am so disgusted by myself.

am eating now,
after this am heading to see a doc.


oh, gf nearly wanted to have timeout with me ah.
=(((
luckily never.
if not you all won't see me on this earth anymore.
=/



alrights,
am off now.


/laters







girl, you know i'll do anything for you.

worked.

lerrick went to put tattoo.
nice.

didn't meet gf today.
=((((



bad day for me.


i'm moodswinging.



don't ask me why,
maybe cause i miss that girl just too much.

+

i'm sick.












/laters

screwed up my work today.
hope tomorrow will be fine.
feeling damn stress now.

luckily i met mrs frank.
she simply just brighten up my day.
(provided if we don't quarrel)
it had been 8 days since i've last saw her,
finally met her up today.
and hopefully i can see her everyday.
=)))

you are the light of my life! TEEHEEHEE!


oh wells,
it's time to learn how to organise our time properly.
she has got school,
i got work.


wells,
she's doing her art now.
and i'm off to have my supper cum dinner.
and then wait for MRS FRANK'S msg. =)))))






i'm one happy boi with you around. =))))
i wonder what will i be without you.
GLOOMY ALL DAY LONG that is.




/always loving ya.

she just doesn't seeem to understand.



wanna take MC tomorrow,
but no replacement.
so couldn't make it.

that SJB is out,
with family.
and i miss her.

sighs*
hope to see her tomorrow.







why?

hello people.
it's a new year, 2005.
i had a fuckened new year's eve.

monks-ed,
when i'm not supposed to.
got drunk,
when i'm not supposed to.
and the rest i don't wanna say in details.
i know sorry doesn't mean anything to you now,
but i'm still very sorry.


but i'm glad everything's fine now. =))
i promise,
no more next time.
i make sure nothing like this happen again.


my gf's SJB,
she likes to quarrel with me.
no quarrel she not happy,
want pick a quarrel with me ah.
people quarrel sad,
she quarrel she happy.
serious SJB problem.
OH!
and she called me a bitch just now.
ROAR!!
wellss,
but never mind,
i still love,
as much. =))


and i wanna see her now.
i miss this SJB but i still love gf so much.
ggrrrrr.







you know i can't live without you.