de s ir es___

2009-03-10T01:56:00.003+08:00

i just feel that there ain't any effort being made

Days passes so slowly and it feels like years that i last seen you or spoke to you,
it's so torturing.
Part of me wants you back in Singapore like NOW, but another part of me doesn't,
i'm just so afraid that when you are back everything will change between us cause we don't even speak to each other anymore.

Trying to keep myself occupied so that i wouldn't think so much.

/laters

new tatt soon.

2008-06-11T17:18:00.001+08:00

HI ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-23T03:02:00.000+08:00

fucking hell can't sleep.
fucking worried.
3 hours and counting, fucking can't thru the line.
kaos!

/later

2007-07-21T12:49:00.000+08:00

My baby's out of town, won't be seeing her till tomorrow. blahs. ):

i miss baybeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

/later

2007-06-25T10:39:00.000+08:00

i lost my voice.
i am supposed to say "I am your worst nightmare" to scare people,
but not having to say that i think i've already scared enough people yesterday and today i'm gonna scare more.
whoever i served in the store gave me a "what the fuck is wrong with ya voice" look.
so paiseh. so i've decided not to talk so much.

salary is coming,
increasing of GST also coming.
bloody hell!
why is everything increasing but NOT MY SALARY!
honestly,
i'm feeling super depressed now.
yes,
1stly is about the above issue.
2ndly is i don't know what is going on in my mind.
she mentioned that we drifted.
i still feel not secured.(as usual)
i feel that i know nothing.

ok, `nuff said.

i'm going to rest my sexy voice.

i miss that silly

/later

2007-06-10T00:44:00.001+08:00

Hellllllllllllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! (:

I've just started my practs for 2B. (:
now my hands got 3 tones all thanks to the sun. shitty!
tanning salon next month with baby!

hmmmm,
getting bay her "pink color" next month,
nah, i mean "white color" hehs.
wondering what is it?
DON'T TELL YOU!

ok, i'm being lame.

there's nothing to blog lah.
oh! i haven't mentioned that work is getting super boring for me?
yes! it's getting super duper boring. tsk!

and,

i think my god son's damn cute!
:D

MISSES!

/later

2007-05-12T02:28:00.000+08:00

The truth is out and its hurting.
it may seem that it's nothing to me,
it may seem that it doesn't really affect me that much at all,
but it hurts.

You'll never know how much i do treasure you,
you'll never know how much i love you.
You may think that i don't anymore,
but it ain't the way it is.

People say,
true love only applies when there's only one,
when there's forgiveness,
when there's nothing to hide from each other,
when there's trust,
when there's commitment.
I may be able to forgive, but i'll never forget.

I don't even know if it's all along a one sided,
or is it not.
all you could say is "i don't know".
you ain't even sure of yourself and your feelings.

There's nothing much i can say.
but only,
"i really do love you."

/later

2007-05-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

i wish i was not me.
i've decided to keep it all in me,
not single soul will know, nobody.

this sucks,
big time.

i wonder what's wrong.

truth always hurts, so i'd rather not get hurt.

2007-04-23T10:16:00.000+08:00

I love her.
I love her so much that i can't sense my own existant,
it feels that i'm living just for her; i think i am living just for her.
i exist because of her.
i won't wanna let her down, never will let her down.

yes, the her is non other than my baby.

just got back from setting up of suntec bazaar.
more than 16 hours of work, how tiring can this be.
although it feel quite torturing, cause i was having very bad backache and terrible headache.
but still... it was quite fun. (:
carrying of cartons, labeling of price for apparels(many many cartons of apparels).
getting dirty, i mean super dirty.
sneezed an infinity times all thanks to the dust.
drank many many green teas and smoke lots and lots of ciggies.
visiting basement dirty toilet many many times(the toilet stinks like it hasn't been washed for a million years)

i miss my bay ):

2007-04-21T01:07:00.000+08:00

i just realised something today during closing,
Bani is actually fatter then me! whoa...
although his 'breast' is smaller then mine, but it's so big for a guy.
i think he needs nipple tape.
while trying on to some new arrivals, i don't know he excited with what lah huh.
he actually used scotch tape to act as nipple tape, i can tell you it's useless please!
my god.

work has been going fine for me.
this guy from wingtai is joining my team next week, as a SSA.
i'm quite scared actually,
maybe i really never work as hard as i thought i would.
i wanna get promoted so badly, for the $$$.
it's not that much, but it's still money. duh~
and i wanna give bay good life, so i need more $$$$. (:

alrights, off to youtube.

baby, i will still wanna love you more. Much much more....

/later

2007-04-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

today is a fucking suay day,
i got caught for throwing cigg butt again.
3rd time please. GRRRR!!!
SUPER BAD MOOD!!!!!!!!!!

well,
i've been feeling so emotionally unstable these few days.
i've totally got no idea why is it so.

maybe...
1stly, i've lost a number of important people.
2ndly.............. i don't know.

the fear that i've always felt has come back again,
the fear of losing.
there's so many decisions that had been made,
i wasn't even being informed at all, maybe i'm the last to know.
the feeling suck,
suck big time.

aiya,
whatever lah.

super no mood now,
i can kill YOU now if you provoke me.

im gonna CS.

/later

2007-04-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

Our genting trip was great! (:

had so much fun.

look how lovely this girlie is, loves. (:

next trip?

yes yes, next month. (:

what will i be without you baby.

/later

2007-04-09T10:24:00.000+08:00

i seriously honestly sincerely think that my blog can't be seen.
but who cares.
haven't been logging into blogger for such a long time,
the last time i logged in it gave me so much problems.
you can see me, you can see me NOT!
whatever....

i can't wait for our upcoming trip to genting!
(:
baby look so sososososososososoosososososo gorgeous when we'er purchasing our tix.
OPS!
i don't mean she's not now,
but when someone's happy they will look extremely gorgeous,
ain't i right?
hor baby? (:

alrights,
time to work.

i think i'm addicted to CS again,
no more 1.6, it's Condition Zero now.

/later

2007-03-25T11:43:00.001+08:00

2007-03-25T11:38:00.000+08:00

2007-03-24T09:29:00.000+08:00

2007-03-21T14:51:00.003+08:00

d3 testing again & again

2007-03-21T14:51:00.001+08:00

d3 testing again..

2007-03-21T11:39:00.001+08:00

d3 testing

2007-03-19T11:13:00.001+08:00

2007-03-19T10:53:00.001+08:00

2007-03-19T10:43:00.000+08:00

2007-03-18T02:00:00.000+08:00

SmileAn everlasting smileA smile can bring you near to me
Don't ever let me find you wrong
Cause that would bring a tear to me
This world has lost it's glory
Lets start a brand new story
Now my love
You think that I don't even mean a single word I say.

It's only words
And words are all I have To take your heart away
Talk In everlasting words And dedicate them all, to me
And I will give you all my life
I'm here if you should call to me
You think that I don't even mean a single word I say

It's only words
and words are all i have
to take your heart away.

/later

2007-03-16T13:05:00.000+08:00

2007-03-16T10:35:00.000+08:00

2007-03-16T02:47:00.000+08:00

2007-03-13T11:04:00.001+08:00

2007-01-16T03:36:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating my stupid blog.
doubt anyone reads it anyway,
but i'm still gonna update now.

xx and gang, sorry about that night.meet up soon ok! (:

going to work has been a chore to me,
opening the shop and closing shop with the ugliest zombie face you would never wanna see.
sleeping has been a chore to me too(and it still is),
2 or 3 hours a day, or maybe none.
too much thoughts on my mind,
too much emotions in me.
beer beer beer and more beer,
becoming some stupid alcoholic.(faster slap me on my face)

i thought i would be stronger,
i guess i'm getting weaker and weaker as each day passes by.
why does my heart always feel so heavy and sour.
i'm acting like some freaking fucked up coward, hum ji like nobody's business.TSK.
and it's getting on my nerves, i hate the way i am now.

somebody kill me if you can/want,
but please don't stain ya hands with my blood.
strangle me or what lah, make me die the most handsome way if possible.
what rubbish.

i don't even know what am i thinking and who am i now.
bonkers is the word to describe me at this moment i guess.

bye world.
bye peeps.
(don't worry, i'm not gonna commit suicide. I'M NOT SUICIDAL!)

/later

2007-01-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

NANCY IS HERE TO INVADE!

KUMANTONG IS JUST PLAIN OLD LAZY .
PLAYING DAYTONA INSTEAD OF BLOGGING.

" YOU ARE DRIVING IN THE WRONG DIRECTION "

ANYWAY NANCY IS GOING OFF TO THAILAND IN 4 MORE DAYS.
MUST MISS ME OKAY?
LOVE ?
IF NOT MUMMYYYY WILLL CARRRYYY YOOUUUUUU!

NANCY IS DONE HERE!
LOVE LOVE LOVE!
(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

2007-01-06T15:47:00.000+08:00

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I Somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

/later

2007-01-05T01:56:00.000+08:00

OH MY FUCKING GOD!
I'M FUCKING SICK.
AND NOBODY IS GIVING A FLYING SHIT FUCK ABOUT ME. POUTS.

i need to see a shrink very badly,
someone intro me a good one please!

somebody tell me HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

/later

2007-01-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes.
All I know is it happens everytime.
'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You made me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If i could freeze some moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still
'Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

i don't know how am i supposed to say how i feel at this very moment,
you might think i'm crazy.
i'm sucha emo freak, grouchy arsehole for these past few days or rather weeks, this is totally driving me crazy.
i think i should work more, work till i die! (:

to that very someone, i'm glad you're happy with ya other half now.
i wanna thank you for making what i am now, i'm much stronger.

/later

2007-01-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

i want to not bother please.

/later

2007-01-03T03:39:00.000+08:00

MY NEW FLIP FLOP! :D

a small gathering with the girls, my besties from sec sch. (:
although i'm coughing like hell, fucking sick, fucking can't breathe.
but i'm one happy boi. so happy to see them!
meet up soon again!! *grins
we took neos, but kinda lazy to scan.......

i wish i am able to read ya mind.....

/later

2006-12-30T03:30:00.000+08:00

everything is not gonna be easy for me i guess,
i'm already feeling part of the upcoming misery i'm gonna get.

drinking has became my hobby, i'm a alcoholic now.
only you can save me i guess.
but i know things ain't as simple as it seems,
i feel like giving up, even when nothing even started.

call me a coward,
or rather i'm just afraid of my past.
whatever shit that had happened to me before,
whatever consequences i get.
how i'm had being taken granted for,
and how i got hurt.
i don't wish history to repeat.
i just wanna settle down that's all.

work at 11am,
feeling kinda tipsy but can't get to sleep.
prison break is keeping me awake,
but i am not able to catch what that episode is takling about cause my mind ain't here.

what i want is very simple.

/later

2006-12-25T13:43:00.000+08:00

i've finally lighten that weight in my heart,
i feel so relieved. (:

ace was in a big mess last night,
all the spraying and at our table you can see food on the floor.
cause at the beginning when people are having fun,
i just can't stop eating! haha.

awaking with curry chicken rice with kangkong & vitagen! (:

off to work.

i don't expect anything back from you, at least i'm happy now! (:

/later

2006-12-21T04:37:00.000+08:00

some random pic took at maggie's house door. burgee and her said i look like construction worker! POUTS!

we are lost kids outside mos. ):

you know what? i feel like shit.
and again, only those who know will know.
you know, i just wanna be there for you, nothing more then that.
and i still don't know if should tell you how i feel.
SIGHS BIG TIME!

/later

2006-12-19T02:34:00.000+08:00

my mdm msg me from switzerland! hahah, so sweet of her. (:
faster come back and take nice nice picture with me, then i'll take you to movie! :P

this morning the moment i woke up,
i felt so stress, so confused.
don't know why, for nothing. (those who know will know lah)
sighs!
shit.

all i can do is to stand by you.

/later

2006-12-16T02:59:00.000+08:00

i feel like an idiot.
bahs!

the stupidest fool ever alive!

/later

2006-12-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

i'm like a fucking emo freak now.
PUI!

off to bed lah, sickchild!
tsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsk!

how i miss .......

/later

2006-12-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

i think i'm becoming alcoholic.tsk.
that's not a very good sign.

had been feeling so shitty these few days,
kinda upset too.
hiding ya feelings for someone ain't a nice feeling.
kns.

no hopee

/later

2006-12-11T02:24:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling confused.
only those who know will know. (:

tomorrow store meeting @ 930am.
yawns.
then will be helping out @ shaw's bazzar. YAWNS!
they better not play christmas songs,
they are lullaby(s) to me.

i'm feeling not here not there, who do i really like?! EEYUURR!!! ):

as i said,
only those who know will know.

/later

2006-12-09T01:05:00.000+08:00

today is a fucking tiring day.
bad mood these few days, like some mad dog.
how i dread going to work.
simply just so lazy.

Naruto is the only thing that keeps me entertained for now,
how boring can a friday night be?
irritating piece of shit!

met up with the neh ji(s)- xx & maggie, burger, jae and mavis.
had dinner at vi'lage, the old marche.
slacked at spins.
had sunkiss t twist(s),
got fucking pek cek because of the fucking weather.
took cab back with mavis.

i feel so good after telling you how i feel; special one.i wanna see you again. :)

/later

2006-12-07T13:58:00.000+08:00

MOS with syaz, cal, ah jun. peishan, felicia and of course my special guest chermaine; my mdm, along with her friends too.

mdm promised to take nicer pics with me.
these 2 are quite random.

chermaine trying to be funny and thinks she can take our face.LOL.

look at our messy hair!

training later!
i'm starting to miss you.

/later

2006-12-06T17:34:00.000+08:00

mummy got me tigger t-shirt, MY FAV!
i'm one happy boy now.
hee. ((((:

/later

2006-12-05T04:51:00.000+08:00

D&D was fun!
i was so fucking nervous even before i went up the stage for my competition,
goodness, my hands were stone cold please.
i din win in the end, LOL!
so expected lah. ):
never mind, i din win not because my singing wasn't good,
was i too nervous stand down there and never move! -.-
so ya....

went pool session with cine team members,
then headed off to boat quay.
wanted to club...
but monday no clubs!
so went movie with collin instead.
watched saw3.
too bad james can't watch, so wan wuu went off with him.
it's R(21) anyways.

oh wellss.......

B.I.R.D annual D&D 06` held at Raffles Hotel.

short one and evelyn.

kotek(s)!

irritating short one who always call me mushroom head.tsktsk.

kotek fiz!

wan wuu giving flower to his idol BENSON!LOL!!

Cine Team! (:

that's mel.

ok, video of myself at the competition.see it for yourself, i stood there like some idiot. most importantly,
DON'T LAUGH!

i miss you...

/later

2006-12-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

i swear i'm going crazyyyyyyyyyy

tomorrow is D&D and i haven't decided on what song to sing yet.
tsk.

i'm freaking tired now.
i'm going to bed.

goodnight world.

/later

2006-12-02T02:56:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating due to some stupid problem with my explorer.
made me so pek cek these few days. want to die you know!

today is the KOTC(King Of The Cage) day.
venue at our dragon's very own gym,
the 1st KOTC in Singapore. (:
xiao long fought in the 1st match and he won! :D

setting up of cage in progress......
Day 1.

and before the match...

Our fellow dragons with OUR CHAMPION and of course our master;

and there will be another KOTC in March,
whoever interested can come and watch, ticket price unknown.
so ya. (:
when march is here, i will update again.

alrights,
heading to bed already.
tomorrow got work.
tsk!

/later

2006-11-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

Headed down to Marina Sq to get handwraps.
ate Carl's JR.
played some bangbang game with cal.
some shopping for cal and jun.
and back to tpy to meet the 2 toads!

new handwrap!

some backtrackings; outing with master and the 2 toads! (:

Baby&me at seletar.

thanksgiving feast!!
the toads will be heading down to DG early in the morning.
hope my ankle gonna be ok by morning,
gonna flood it with oil later so i can train with them tomorrow!!
will be double training day though,
morning and evening!
YAY!

/later

2006-11-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

Dragon Gym will be having advanced Thanksgiving feast on this coming saturday,
toad and i are going to cook beef stew/chicken stew!(Burke's style)
The one with one can of brown sauce powder, 6 bottles of cooking wine with lots of carrots and cabbage.
Sounds scary and you might think you will get tipsy after eating it(cause of the cooking wine),
you are wrong.
Alcohol content won't be there after much boiling and stewing,
it will evaporate!
so ya....
can't wait please! (:

Madam Chermaine Tan is coming back to Singapore on the 4th of next month!
Can't wait to see her please!
it's been a long time since we last see each other and talk.
faster faster faster faster..............

I might be heading down to Liang Seng tomorrow,
to take a look at the hand wraps.
hmmm... i wanna get black ones! :D
can't wait to get my own kit though,
stupid blackjack! drag only... hurhur.

juanie is sick,
toadie is sick,
you 2 sick toads! take care please.
i want to train with you guys soon!
so you can laugh at me and i can laugh at you! heeheehee.

/later

2006-11-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

i sprained my ankle very badly,
today is just not my day.
i don't know how the fuck i can land wrong when i come down from the stupid stool.
i did not jump, neither did i attempted to jump off that SUAY stool,
i slowly move my legs down, BUT WHY!!!! ):
i'm gonna miss this week's training, i'm totally upset about it.

now i know why my heart will go POMPOMPOM when i see ----.
BECAUSE...........
she resembles DENISE KELLER!
i swear i'm not lying, those who know what i'm talking about...
go take a closer look at her when you see her.
even juanie agree with me!
HOR JUANJUAN!?
hahahahhaha.

i'm going to go down and watch them train tomorrow,
going to sit there and rot.
and i'm bringing my "gay" colleauge to watch.

a most recent pic @ seletar,

juan and me after training, we're dead tired! and that was the day i got molested damn badly by them in the pool! ):

that's cal, full of powder, she look like she's molding.

ok, that's all for now.

/later

2006-11-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SONG I'VE LOOKING FOR! my god, finally i found it!

sians half please.

2006-11-17T03:40:00.000+08:00

TAKE NOTE!

"This entry is gonna be damn random, please bear with it."

And Travis is my papaya in cardigan.

what a tiring day to start with,(i had only roughly 3 hours of sleep.)
but yet i had unfinished things to do, how did i survived for today i wonder.
i got a feeling i'm so gonna get scolding later in the morning!
for leaving such a big mess behind in the store. ):

had been having "insonmia" these 2 days,
my body tired, but my mind was don't know thinking of WHAT!
like now lah, i'm feeling this way.
damn! when can i start to get proper sleep(s).
i think i totally screwed my sleeping hours during that 6 days away from work.
i shouldn't take anymore annual leave.(but i have to, SIGHS!)

i'm waiting very patiently for my 13 months bonus,($$$$$$$$$)
and of course D&D night.
i wonder how it would be like.HAHAHA.
and and and.... christmas is coming too!
so excited lah!

i have been visiting youtube and watching a lot of stupid videos.
i think i wanna watch "1 litre of tears" all over again,
that show is superb!
now i'm watching some UFC fights.
after this video i'm gonna head to bed,
my eyes are closing!
bahs!

always think positive. ya right!

/later

2006-11-15T02:41:00.000+08:00

i think i'm falling...................

after 6 days of off(s) and leave(s),
i nearly died today at work.
was feeling so lazy and all sort of shit(s)!grrrr.
cannot take it.

later i gotta be work at 930am,
now i can't sleep.
all thanks to the 2 cans of beer.pouts.

gonna meet toad in the morning to go work together,
hope i won't be late! hahaha!!!

welll........
i really miss you leh. =/

/later

2006-11-14T00:06:00.000+08:00

you caught my eyes and my attention, you're just so gorgeous.
you don't know how i went crazy when you come close.
i wonder.........

tomorrow starting work!!
i'm feeling so lazy please, DIE ah DIE DIE DIE.

so sweet of debbie to get presents from hong kong.(actually i demanded for one)
hahahaha, green t shirt small size.
see how a fat arse like me can fit into it. blahs.

you always make me smile;misses (:

/later

2006-11-12T16:03:00.000+08:00

i'm damn bored.

some backdated pics.

TO&SO (:

shoes..

totally traumatised by cal the monster. ):

Gorgeous, i'm thinking of you. are you thinking of me too? (:

i don't know, it's only a day(maybe) since i last saw you. i kinda miss ya smile. (:

DAMN!

/later.

2006-11-12T02:33:00.000+08:00

the stupid pics we took at seletar.

you made my heart skipped many beat. -.-

/later

2006-11-11T15:02:00.000+08:00

i stole this pic from ben's friendster. LOL.

i don't know how i'm feeling towards you. but you're just so adorable.i haven't felt this way for very long. (:

life is really unpredictable.
suddenly, just suddenly,
so many people are getting sick.
so many people around me are getting sick.

off to visit my bro at TTSH and off to seletar.
don't know if i should club tonight. =/

/later

2006-11-11T01:42:00.000+08:00

i'm having a minor crush on someone.
HAHAHA.

zara is damn fat now,
but still as pretty, so cute; little princess. :D

ok, going to off to sleep soon,
gym tomorrow with toad the zaBEI and zaBU.

ciaos.

/later

2006-11-10T01:29:00.001+08:00

my favourite girl in 1 litre of tears. :D (Erika Sawajiri)

2006-11-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

my favourite girl in 1 litre of tears. :D (Erika Sawajiri)

2006-11-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

say hello to mavis's twin.

don't you think they look alike?muahahaha.

i was forced to take pic with this thing.

that's joell. (:

pics i took at boat quay at 6+ in the morning.

no one can touch my heart..

/later

2006-11-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

i've finally finished 1 litre of tears.
the cute girl died in the end. ):
so saddening please.

and now, i'm watching miss swan.
she's a irritating piece of shit.
LOL.

going out soon,
i better go get ready before i get nagging.
ciaos.

/later

2006-11-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

i think i'm starting to have BIG fetish for jap girls, esp this one below!

pretty like fuck!!

she smile so cute please...faints!

she look so good even with that patch of thing on her face. goodness!!

2006-11-05T15:08:00.000+08:00

continued...

this pic damn classic!

debbie super act cute when high. LOL!!

@ HRC

stupid leg cramp is killing me,
can't fucking walk properly.
i feel as though my legs have became stone sculpture.

and i think AI SHA IS DAMN CUTE!

MY LOVE!!

i'm bored and i'm in pain.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

/later

2006-11-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

ktv with all the crazy peeps, we got high! VERY high!
(the picture shows it all)

2006-11-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

mummy damn cute.LOL.

my dad decided to sit alone, while me and mummy take pics. :D

that's mavis and travis. mavis say she look like some hot girl. -.-

SMILE!!!

my dearest bro. (:

look at her stupid face, i was trying to take mavis and travis dancing. =/

travis's papaya face. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2006-10-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

just got these pics today. updat update abit.
and i got sore eyes, don't know how to go work tomorrow. tsk.
i don't know how i feel...

/later

2006-10-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

K session with the bunch og crazy peeps.lol.
OUR cine team. not all, but most were there. :)

ANOTHER OUTTING AGAIN PLEASE!
THIS TIME OPEN SOMETHING DEBBIE WOULD DRINK.
LOL.

/later

2006-10-15T03:26:00.000+08:00

my gracehaven buddies. (:
nice catching up with all of them.
went hong kong cafe at kovan, then headed to plaza's Kbox. :D
yang's bird-day is coming. hmmm.....

hard rock today, boring leh.
that place is getting more and more boring, don't know why leh. =/
maybe i'm too old to club. LOL!
(what rubbish)

going to see new teevee tomorrow with mummy!
and hopefully to get my own Xbox too. :D

/later

2006-10-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

fist time for this map, i got FIRST!! heeheeheee.

2006-10-10T01:51:00.000+08:00

whatever lah.

(that's all i can say now, i ain't in good mood.)

2006-10-06T01:05:00.000+08:00

Movie outing with sis and mum.

and some pics taken yesterday that i think is reallie retarded.

i totally look like i'm kissing her, but i'm NOT.

and the cameraWOman is LPY. lol.

tanning tomorrow! wheeeeeeee. (:

/later

2006-10-05T03:40:00.000+08:00

MOS with the 2 darlings. (:

hazel and lerrick!

i got stupid face here.

and........back at home, my mum and sis started fashion showing @ 3.30 in the morning.... and then..... after their fashion show pic...

gonna go gym tomorrow! way to go ME! hahahahaha.

LATER!!

2006-10-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

come kiss kiss.HAHAHA.

this is how a professional should break their balls ---> cal did this.LOL.

we were just being lameee.

2006-09-30T18:26:00.000+08:00

what would you do if people look down on you?
what would you do if people laugh at what you dream of?
stand up for yourself? or just keep quiet and give up?
i don't know...

met up with lao ren and xiao mao on thurs.
so nice to see them again,
and we took very little pics.
next time must take more!!

and then.....

let's go KONGKONG! :D

i'm still trying to sort my thoughts

/later

2006-09-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

my hair is growing!!!

2006-09-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

somehow or rather,
i dread going to work.
but at the same time,
i wanna work harder to be the best.
sounds contradicting right,
i'm contradicting myself.

ai qing bu neng zuo bi qiao

nobody knows what i'm thinking,
not even myself maybe.

will be heading to gym more often then i would ever imagine.
gonna do something about myself.
hmmmm...

/later

2006-09-18T00:46:00.000+08:00

Audrey --

[noun]:

A person of questionable sanity who starts their own cult

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

life ain't simple, that i agree.
but you can always lead it in a simple way.

/later

2006-09-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

oh, work was boring.
i got one wound on my right wrist,
it looks like a cigg burn but it isn't.
what is it?
look like a hole being punched there with puncher,
it was bleeding around.
goodness, am i dying?
WHAT BIT ME???????
):

no more clubbing for me this month.
i'm officially broke,
i was officially broke at the beginning of the month.
i spent all my salary before the month started.
HOW GREAT!

and i saw this damn nice jacket at adidas today,
i had it reserved.
i'm gonna get it no matter what!

i've got alot to do the coming month when i get my salary.

1)Buffet with xinyi
2)buy fragrant
3)take my theories
4)club and drink more with cal till we drop and die
5)get new jeans
6)more shoppings
7)and more SHOPPINGS!

i hope i won't end up like this next month.
hahahaha.
the feeling of being penniless, SUCKS!

today is daddy's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PA!

i hope your health will get better as each day passes by. loves. (:

/later

2006-09-12T02:07:00.000+08:00

there are just too many things in life that is unexplainable.
sometimes you don't know why certain shit happen to you,
you won't even know how to handle it,
but i believe that's the only you can learn from your mistakes in life; or even to look clearly at what kinda people are around you.

sometimes i wish i was an animal, stray or not doesn't matter.
look at how carefree this stupid cat underneath my void deck is:

that's why now i say, live your life to the fullest.
so even when your life has come to an end,you know you have no regrets at all.
treasure the love ones around you, i mean it.

/later

2006-09-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

2006-09-08T01:24:00.000+08:00

DAMN TIRED PLEASE!

if only.......

2006-09-05T01:08:00.000+08:00

wo hen wo ai ni

out with the boys today.
got nowhere to go,
so headed to bedok for lan.

oh, went to doc today.
i swear poly clinic docs are useless.
to the core man.
tsk.

i'm a dying person here,
cough, knee pain and i'm boldinggggggggggggggg.
):

/later

2006-09-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

went MOS for kayne's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOI! :D
i guess i got highhhh. LOL.

2006-08-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

you caught my eyes not once, not twice, but uncountable times. i like your smile. (:

work today was fine,
but don't know why my left knee hurt so badly today.
god!
somehow or rather, i'm very afraid to go and collect my blood test results.
pray for me peeps!

mos for kayne's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOI!

/later

2006-08-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

gorgeous, you definately caught my eye.

HRC was good. (:
got drunk together with the birthday girl.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAL! :) loves

went to the doc today, and he managed to scare me with just one sentence,
"ni de guan jie huai le" (your joints are spoilt)
heading to gym with sister darius tomorrow morning and off to doc again in the afternoon.
let's hope that there's nothing wrong with my god damned knee.

oh,
and my cough is not getting any better too.
i'm weak.

/later

2006-08-25T01:21:00.000+08:00

my birthday celebration at hardrock, so sweet of all of those who actually came. ((:

2006-08-24T17:03:00.000+08:00

went to gym with darius.
while doing some weights, he made me laugh like hell.
how can you darius!
what if i just let go of the thing and then say byebye to bj.
:/

my cough is still very bad,
so are my knees. :)
sat will be celebrating cal's birthday, going hard rock i guess. :D
so can see the who the who.HEE.

/later

2006-08-24T16:50:00.000+08:00

2006-08-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

2006-08-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

[Verse 2]
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

[Bridge]
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

i can't stop thinking, i can't stop feeling.

morning breakfast meeting with all, sean and evelyn.
what a good start for the day. HA!
fuck.

/later

2006-08-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

Augustana - Boston

In the light of the sun,
Is there anyone?
Oh it has begun...
Oh dear, you look so lost,
Your eyes are red
and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed.
You said,

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.

Essential yet appealed,
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field,
When flowers gaze at you,
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you
You said,

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
Well you said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.

She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain. Oh yeah well
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,

Boston, where no one knows my name,
Where no one knows my name
Where no one knows my name, yeah.

Boston, where no one knows my name.

2006-08-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

i love my bros! (:

can't stop coughing! grrrrrrrrrr.
HARD ROCK ON SAT PLEASE PEOPLE!!

/later

2006-08-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

i'm falling sick,
nose can't stop leaking, can't stop coughing.
and my bloody knee, HA!
still as irritating!

i miss my old life,
my life is so boring now please,
i ought to have some fun!! (:

19th is getting nearer and nearer. :D

tommorrow gotta wake up early for work, deliveries. grrrr

/later

2006-08-13T16:48:00.000+08:00

my knees are not helping at all,
i woke up not being able to move my both legs. how cool la?
i can feel the extreme tension at my leg muscles and it's fucking painful.
i feel my knee caps are out of place,i can move them around.psst.
the stupid medication is not working. HOW!

i don't love you no more

/later

2006-08-11T03:02:00.000+08:00

our trip to JB! (:

2006-08-10T05:03:00.000+08:00

momo night

woot!
2 days in a row clubbing!
but was quite boring though, not much drinks and still kena pushed here and there by some stupid smelly guys. grrrrr.
MOS still the best i guess. (:

i need a doc damn badly,
my knees are falling apart soon!
can't walk properly, can't dance properly.
aching every sec of my stupid life, pssst!
irritating like hell!!
)))))):

god, i love this song by JJ.
saranghaeyo.
(:

alrights,
going to sleep soon le i guess.
maybe meeting AJ later for awhile, she'll be alone.
chaos.

/later

2006-08-08T01:57:00.000+08:00

And I don't want to do this anymore.
I don't want to be the reason why.
And everytime I walk out the door.
I see her die a little more inside.
And I don't want to hurt her anymore.
I don't want to take away her life.
I don't want to be a murderer.

everything just don't seem right in my life.

momo tomorrow night,with maggie and xx.(and don't know who)
beer drinking competition, $200!!!
(:

/later

2006-07-09T03:47:00.000+08:00

why do you always think that you're the only whose hurt?
you don't know how much hurt you've caused me.

you always use harsh words on me,
i'm a human too, you know that?
i ain't robot of anything else,
i've got feelings too, i can FEEL.

you always make me feel that i ain't important at all.
from today's incident i can feel what exactly you meant when you said,
"you are very important to me".
it's all the other way round, i guess.

you don't know how much i wanted to see you today,
i was all excited, wanting to reach the place where you were fast.
i made a long journey, but only saw you for 5 seconds.
or maybe less then that.
no hugs no kisses.
only anger.
you din even bothered to make me stay.
i'm nothing.

sighs.
i feel meaningless living on this earth now, how i wish i could just die.
*h**** hurts.i can't breathe.

/later